レーヴノ光 | Glow of Rev

Ubahlah aku...

2012-02-13T00:41:00.002+08:00

Aku susah nak marah berdepan2. Susah gila. Marah aku bukan jenis meletup, menyumpah seranah ke batang hidung muka mangsa marah. Marah aku lain macam. Marah aku jenis menyimpan...menyimpan rasa x puas hati pastu pulaukan malaun tu sampai la diorang prasan aku marah. Banyak orang tak perasan aku marah, sampai la lepas bertahun2 aku tak cakap langsung dengan diorang, baru la diorang tanya aku balik,

"Aku ada buat salah ke? Apsal kau tak cakap dengan aku langsung?"

Banyak kali, aku yang jadi mangsa pedajal dulu. Sebab tu aku buat camtu. Aku malas nak gaduh sampai kecoh, gegar rumah, sampai naik urat kat kepala, sampai terbalikkan meja, tendang tong sampah etc etc. Membazer kalori je. Tapi bila menyimpan rasa marah senyap2 tu, memang ada rasa dendam. Dan bila ada rasa dendam, ada doa2 terbibit di sanubari supaya orang tu pergi jahanam dan hidup x aman.

Tapi itu cerita dulu.

Bila aku buat macam tu, sebenarnya aku sendiri yang jahanam. Orang tu pon xde la jahanam sangat. Menyimpan marah ngan dendam ni tak guna. Makan dalam. Makan hati. Sendiri yang hidup tak tenang. Kalau dulu, aku susah betol nak maafkan orang yang buat silap dengan aku...

Entah bila, pintu hati aku terbukak untuk jadi lebih pemaaf. Semuanya terjadi pada satu malam yang agak ajaib. Aku tak boleh tido malam walaupun da baring dekat 2 jam. Aku teringat kat sorang yang memang aku marah sangat2 ni. Tiba2 rasa marah/dendam tu hilang camtu je. Rasa nyesal pulak ada sebab nyimpan dendam. Dada aku rasa lapang. Nafas aku jadi lancar.Hati aku jadi tenang. Aku rasa nak call orang tu time tu gak nak bagitau yg aku da maafkan dia. Tapi sebab da pukul 4 pagi, aku tido dlu la. Esok tu baru aku call. Memang orang tu terkejut dgn perubahan aku. Terharu biru orang tu dengar suara aku cakap camtu, harapkan kemaafan aku dari dulu tak dapat2, tiba2 aku pulak call nak berdamai.

Agaknya ada orang doakan aku supaya aku berubah, aku tak tau sapa, tapi aku ucapkan terima kasih, banyak2. Kalau la aku jenis pemaaf sejak dulu lagi, mesti hidup aku ni x misery macam skarang ni...

Dilema aku skarang ni, keje baru ni memang aku kene jadi tegas, dan jugak pemarah kadang2. Penyelia aka supervisa...eh supervisor. Yang ni susah betol aku nak buat. Susah betol nak marah2 orang lain. Lagi2 orang tu lagi tua dari aku. Dah la aku dulu jenis marah tak tunjuk, tambah pulak kerja customer service yang jenis kena tahan marah...memang subconscious anger management aku da tertanam dalam2 kat benak otak dan darah daging aku ni. Macam da ada dinding tahan marah kat badan aku...takpon mekanisme turunkan balik aras kemarahan dalam otak ni.

Sampai aku pulak kena marah dgn orang2 keliling aku "Kau ni lembut sangat la, cube ko marah sket anak buah ko tu, baru la diorang tak buat perangai". Sampaikan diorang pulak buat kelas untuk aku jadi pemarah...yang kena pada tempat. Yela, marah babi buta kang orang hilang respect pulak...

Kalau dulu, aku akan isytihar boikot, simpan dendam, pulaukan orang yang aku marah...

Sekarang, aku akan cuba selesai cara baik. Kalau orang tu tak sedar jugak salah dia, aku doakan Tuhan bukakkan pintu hati dia...

Kalau ada sesiapa yang aku kenal baca entry ni, ketahui la aku skarang tak simpan apa2 dendam pun kat korang, tak kira la apa kisah antara korang dan aku...kisah lama atau baru...baik laki atau perempuan...

Takyah tunggu ari raya puasa la main kosong-kosong balik ni.

Of Being Friend Zoned

2012-01-24T04:39:00.000+08:00

The friend zone, also commonly known as the ninth circle of hell, is a dating term describing a situation in which one partner wants to become intimate romantically while the other prefers to be just friends. From Wikipedia.

I never knew the feeling of being truly friend zoned, until I got one, recently. Before this, I always believed I got some ray of hope, until recently she told me she had been going out steadily with somebody else. To her, she couldn't accept me more than just a (boy) friend. FML.

On the same night she (truly) friend zoned me, I couldn't sleep for the entire night. So here am I, writing this at very 4:00 am of being sleepless.

My mind is in a mess right now, but thank God, I can still maintain my sanity and my code of conduct is still operational.

I PROMISED MYSELF, that I won't make a fuss about this incident, by Facebook, or verbally. If possible, I want to keep it JUST to myself, but that would make me explode. Tears are normally used to relieve sadness, but my manly tears won't shed no matter how sad I am. I have to dump my sadness somewhere. I don't have many friends I can trust to tell about this sorrow. My last choice is this blog, where very few people read. For writing this blog entry, I am TRULY sorry. I hope she can forgive me...

I PROMISED MYSELF, that I would still treat her as a friend even after this incident. She also promised the same thing...

I PROMISED MYSELF, that I won't hate her if she couldn't accept me...

I PROMISED MYSELF, that I won't bother her anymore now that she has found somebody else. This is a promise that I never told her about...

I PROMISED MYSELF, that I would take care of myself without her...I know I can manage myself, but deep in my heart, I wished I could spend the rest of my life with her...

Before this, I made a promise to myself, I would go after her until all hope is gone. But now since she is taken, I guess the hope is (nearly) gone, leaving me with two options.

A) Make a new promise to myself, if she is single again, I will go chasing after her again.
B) Move on, and open a new chapter in my life book.

Option A doesn't mean that I'm wishing for her to break up with her boyfriend as soon as possible, but you would understand my feelings if you are in my shoes. Watching someone you love being taken by somebody else, I'm sure most of us will have those kinds of 'wishes'. Please, understand me.

Option B, is impossible for me to do it in such a short time. I wished I had option C...

Even though it is very heartbreaking, I still wished her a joyful and happy life. I hope that man will take a good care of her, like how I would do if she is mine. I won't forgive him if something bad happens to her. I mean it.

Even mine is such a sad ending, it is still a better love story than Twilight.

So this is the end, I guess...my 'friend'...

Mesti jangan...

2012-01-16T13:10:00.000+08:00

Penceritaan versi Rage Comic pasal movie Ombak Rindu yang baru je aku tengok. Malas plak nak menulis ayat berjela2.

12 tahun sudah...

2011-12-24T22:40:00.000+08:00

Entah brape bulan lepas, aku terdetik nak buat group facebook untuk budak2 batch aku yg same2 sekolah rendah kat kampung aku ni dulu. Idea ni datang lepas ramai plak kawan2 lame ni add aku kat facebook. Kalau da jadi friend tu, xkan tak betegor sape kot lepas tu? Mesti tegur la. Koman2 tulis kat wall. Pastu chatting sket2. And then minum ngan lepak2 kat mapley. Tapi yang last tu aku x sempat buat pon. Takde peluang nak jumpe derang.

Bila sorang demi sorang add/tegur aku kat facebook, keinginan nak buat group ni semakin membara...pehal poyo plak ayat aku neh. Fak. Pendek cite, aku trase nak buat group ni, diskas dgn sorang budak ni, pastu tros create. setel. Camtu je.

Dan smalam, ade la sorang ni upload gamba kelas mase darjah 6. Dan gambarnye adelah seperti di bawah ni.

Bile tengok balik gamba ni, memang penuh nostalgia. Dan memang trase, betapa cepatnya masa berlalu. Gambar ni amek mase tahun 1999. Skang? Tahun 2011. Lagi seminggu, masuk plak tahun 2012.

Bile tengok gamba ni, muka2 budak2 laki yg budak hingusan ni skang da jadi bujang. Yang dah jadi bapak budak pon ade. Yang bujang tapi badan macam bapak budak pon banyak gak. Aku bersyukur badan aku tak masuk dalam kategori "macam bapak budak". zzz

Budak pompuan? Dulu tengok biase je tak trase ape, siap boleh bertumbuk, bergadoh, bertepuk tampar maen kejar2 dgn derang ni. Skang? Da jadi anak dara. Da jadi cantik, lawa, memikat. Yang jadi mak orang pon ade dah. Alhamdulillah.

Skang ni aku tengah sronok berbalas2 komen kat facebook. Borak punye borak, baru aku teringat yang aku ni slalu gak ngusik ngan menyakat budak2 kelas aku ni, baek laki mahupon pompuan. Nakal gak rupenye aku mase tu. Aku tak boleh recall sangat ape bentuk sakatan yg aku da buat, tapi cam banyak je...maafkanlah aku kawan2.

Aku selaku creator group rase tugas ni tak selesai lagi selagi tak cari sume budak2 batch aku ni, Class of 99. Yang banyaknye yg pernah sekelas dgn aku je. Dah la pastu aku masuk sekolah menengah kat Melaka. Memang lupa habis la kawan2 kampung ni mase zaman tu. Nasib baek la diorang ni ingat kat aku....

Ok. cukup kot membebel. Sambung maen dota balik.

Alarm Jahanam

2011-12-10T02:24:00.001+08:00

Cinta Si Ular Putih

2011-11-18T00:52:00.001+08:00

The Sorcerer and the White Snake [2011]

Tetibe terjebak untuk tengok movie ni, lepas download secara rawak dari PSPISO.com.

Ahli Sihir dan Ular Putih? Cam pelik je title, padehal Jet Li berlakon jadi sami dalam movie ni. Walaupun scene fighting Jet Li dalam movie ni memang badass, tambah plak dengan special effects, tapi bagi aku takde la rupa cam sorcerer sangat pon. Sepatutnya title tu jadi Sami dan Ular Putih. zzz

Sinopsis pendek: Semangat ular putih, Susu (白蛇) yang dah hidup beribu tahun jatuh cinta pada seorang manusia si pencari herba bernama Xu Xian (許仙). Si Ular Putih berubah rupa jadi manusia dan berkahwin dengan Xu Xian. Tapi Si ~~Ahli Sihir~~ Sami bernama Abott Fahai ((法海) nak jugak halang cinta Ular Putih ni sebab pendirian dia yang semua demon ni adalah jahat, maka manusia dan demon tak boleh hidup bersama. Maka terjadilah battle of the century antara ~~Ahli Sihir~~ Sami dengan Ular Putih ni demi cinta sejati pada si pencari herba Xu Xian...

Protagonis2 utama:

Si Ular Putih, Susu (白蛇) Si Pencari Herba, Xu Xian (許仙)

Si ~~Ahli Sihir~~ Sami, Abott Fahai ((法海) Si Ular Hijau, Qingqing (小青)

Sountrack:

Love does not recognise shape and form,
as you seek the meaning of true love,
no one knows when will you discover your true princess,
but it is the kiss of love that has brought us together,
true sacrifice leads to calamity,
the two of us will always be together,
from one life to another life,
and I shall wait for you ...

Movie ni berdasarkan Lagenda Ular Putih yang ditulis masa zaman Dinasti Ming. Patutnya cite ni lagi kompleks dan panjang lagi, tapi movie ni cam straightforward dan cam laju sangat la pulak. Tapi cite ni touching gak la, dan berjaye gak la meniup angin kat taman dalam hati aku...gg. Lagi2 mase scene2 last tu, telah membuatkan aku....

...shed my manly tears.

Damn.

Jodoh rakan sekelas

2011-11-14T00:51:00.001+08:00

Kau dah bertunang??? Kawin bulan November ni???

Itulah ayat yang terpacul dari mulut aku, bila aku dengar sorg kawan dari bekas sekolah menengah aku ni da bertunang. Bertunang dan nikah je pon. Ape yang nak di terkejutkan? Ramai je lagi orang lain yang bertunang ngan nikah tiap2 minggu...

Yang aku terkejut tu sebab, tunang beliau tu ade lah kawan dari bekas sekolah aku gak. Pasangan ni plak sama kelas kot mase Form 5 dulu....

Oh em gee....

Berita ni aku tau 4 bulan yang lepas kot, mase aku datang majlis kawin kawan bekas sekolah gak, kat Melaka.

Minggu ni, atau pada tarikh 12 November 2011 ni la majlis perkahwinan mamat ngan minah ni kat Klang. Selamat sudah dua2 orang kawan2 aku ni. Good for them. Tahniah. Semoga bahagia smpai hujung nyawa. Sampai syurga.

Entry bagai tak lengkap kalau takde drillz. So here am I, delivering the drillz as proof. zzz

*Credits utk Nazmie atas gamba2 yg beliau amek di atas ni.

Macam dalam gamba, cuma ade golongan jantan jer yang datang sebagai wakil kawan2 bekas sekolah. Golongan beti....sorry, ehem...kaum hawa ke mane plak? Well, lepak2 sampai la dekat kol 4 tapi tak nampak pon kelibat kaum hawa. Yang aku dengar, ade segelintir kawan2 kaum hawa ni sesat...sesat ke mana ak pon xtau. Tapi xde la sesat sampai bulan.

Kalau aku, bukan nak riak, tapi susah nak sesat jalan. Study dulu map ke destinasi kaw2 kat Google Maps, pastu drive sambil tengok GPS. Agak mustahil sesat kot...

Sekian.

Alice Berdarah

2011-11-01T01:42:00.002+08:00

Lame gile tak sentuh XBOX ni. Lame sebab tinggal kat kampung je. Pastu jarang plak balik kampung. Bile tinggal kat kampung, adik2 kecik dengan sepupu2 kecik yang maen. Hasilnye? Controller rosak. Geram plak dengan budak2 ni. Memang naik darah aku...

Kalaulah diorang tau harga controller tu kalau nak beli baru...

Sekitar RM160 kot...ikotkan ati, nak je ak lempang dak2 ni sampai berdarah.

XBOX ni utk matured gamers je. Dah games pon banyak yang rating M, untuk matured. Korang budak2 ni, lagi2 sepupu2 aku seblah rumah yang umo 4 taun, 6 taun ni, kot, layan Ben 10, Upin & Ipin ngan BoboiBoy cukup kot. Takyah ngade2 nk maen XBOX ni.

Ada dua controller, tapi dua2 masing2 ade button rosak, membuatkan gaming experience aku macam...palat. Tak bole nak control character 100%. Mati banyak kali sebab button rosak ni. Palat.

Last2 aku bawak gak XBOX ni ke rumah sewa aku. Tinggal lame lagi, mesti punah natang ni nanti. Padan gak muka adik2 aku x dapat maen. Lantak la korang nk merengek camne sekali pon, aku yang ade share 50% XBOX ni bersamaan RM700 xkan nk tinggal bende ni kat rumah, pastu aku yang xpat maen? Akhirnye setelah setahun aku tinggal kampung bagi adik2 aku maen sampai jahanam controller, aku akhirnya bawak gak XBOX dari kampung.

Balik cite pasal controller yang rosak tadi. Last2 aku beli gak sebijik yang baru. RM170. Palat.

Aku beli gak rechargeable battery AA dua set, dgn charger skali. RM90.

Jumlah? Congak dalam otak je. Tak perlu pon kalkulator apetah lagi Kaedah Mokhdar.

Tapi ok la sket, bole la maen multiplayer dgn osmet nanti. Takde la bosan sangat.

Game bola memang aku noob abes. Aku je kena tapau ngan osmet. Tekken ngan Street Fighter? Aku unstoppable. Problem?

Tapi sebnanye antara sebab utama aku beli controller ade la sebab satu game ni la. Alice: Madness Returns.

Kalau controller rosak, camne nk enjoy game tu 100%? Beli controller baru la jawabnye...

Baju berdarah. Rambut hitam, bukan blonde cam movie tu. Mascara lagi. Agak gothic. Bile aku tgk gameplay, Alice hayun pisau tu dah macam Dante dalam Devil May Cry. Memang badass.

Yang aku ingat, kalau tak silap, Dante boleh jump kat mid air sekali. Alice? 3 kali.

Alice: 1 & Dante: 0

Cume satu downsidenye aku tak tengok full movie Alice in Wonderland, jadi knowledge aku pasal cite Alice ni tak cukup....solid. Malas aku nk peduli.

Mood: Marathon abeskan game ni.

Of Chasing After Her

2011-10-22T12:23:00.000+08:00

Many times, I wondered, "Why did I keep on falling in love with the wrong person? And at the wrong time?"

I fell in love once, but never admitted it until it was too late, when she already moved on. She loved me too, sometimes secretly gave me some hints, but I was too naive, or stupid to understand all that, and kept on ignoring her. At the time I realized the truth, I tried to chase after her, but it was already too late. Someone had already given her attention and she chose to be together with him instead of me. Fuck my life.

Whenever I felt like falling in love, I suppressed those feelings first, and began thinking and calculating the possible outcomes. Would I be able to get her? Do I got any chances of winning her heart? After done calculating, I gave it a try, sometimes. But the status for all of them were; mission failure. Fuck my life.

Many times I encountered girls that suddenly got close to me, and my heart became fonder of them. We went for a date many times, and they gave me hope. But when I tried to chase after them, they started to ignore me. It seemed they were fooling around with me, just to get some companies and kill some time. Fuck my life.

Getting hurt from past experiences has made me afraid to get serious. Maybe that's why I'm being quite a pessimist. People might say pessimists are cowards, dare not to take risks and challenges but for me, pessimists could think of many worst possible outcomes, and can avoid damage before it's too late. Sometimes it's for the best, when the cost and damage would be too much to bear, alone.

In a love-war situation, being pessimistic, I always hesitated. And I did many thinkings about the worst possible outcomes. If no one ever encouraged me, I would've do it my way; just stay hidden and stick with being friends even though I had a crush on her. Before the feelings could grow, I would make it go away with my own methods. But the people around me...they always encouraged me to be an optimist. Even though there are not much chances, they always encouraged me to do what a man got to do. "At least you must give it a try. Be a man, do the right thing." That what they said...

And I did try.

In order to build rapport, I did many things and be nice to look good in front of her.

I gave her presents.

I paid her meals, and movies.

I confessed to her.

One of the most strangest thing I found was, she still agreed to went out together with me even after the confession thing. Made me happy, thought that I got some hope of winning her heart. But maybe it's a false hope. Maybe she pretended it so that I won't fall too hard.

Since she is not in KL anymore, I kept on texting, and calling her to know how she is doing. Until one point, I noticed that she somehow has changed. I texted her and she was like "Are you going to text me just like this until forever?" She seemed annoyed and perhaps angry. I don't know what have I done wrong to her.

I asked her out many times, but she kept on rejecting me. I knew she has the rights to ignore me, but it made me really sad.

If she's reading this, please know that I'm still not giving up. I may be a pessimist, but I gotta finish what I've started, until all hope is gone. After all, I do love her, with all my heart.

In the end, I am the one who always getting hurt. Maybe, at the first place, I shouldn't have listened to my friends to take chances of going after her. I chose to be an optimist, got my hopes sky high, and when I failed, I fell too hard, and too fast. Shattered my heart to million pieces. And sunk even deeper than before. Maybe it would've been better if I chose to be a pessimist. If I did, at least, maybe I wouldn't get hurt like this.

Fuck my life.

Kembalinya sebagai tukang bakar

2011-10-02T23:38:00.000+08:00

Aku kira2 da lebih sebulan kot aku x balik kampung, padehal rumah parents cume la 30-40 minit drive dr rumah sewa ni. Ramai kawan2 aku dok tegor aku, "Ko rumah la la dekat, tapi jarang balik rumah. Apelaaa ko ni. Kalau aku jadi kau, memey aku balik tiap2 minggu kot"

Bukan tak nak balik selalu. Memang heaven bile bole balik kampung. Makan tido free. Tunggu makanan terhidang je. Tapi ade bende2 ade kat rumah sewa aku ni, yang tak ada ataupon xleh wat bile balik kampung. Contohnye aku yang jenis keyboard warrior ni mmg x senang duduk kalau xde PC sendiri kat rumah. Ade lagi dua tige sebab laen sebnanye. Malas nk cerite lebih kot. Memey ade...

Maka aku menerima phone call dan jugak SMS dari orang tua ku, menyuruh aku balik ke kampung, sebab nk wat open house la sket. Kenalan2 ayah aku ni nak bertandang ke rumah. Maka aku pon apply cuti dan kembalilah aku ke kampung sebagai.....

...tukang bakar...

...sate???

Ye la dol.

Aku seorang tukang bakar sate...ME GUSTA.

Tu je kot yang aku paling reti, selain daripada masak air, goreng telur, masak megi, tanak nasi, dan jugak potong daging ayam kecik2 untuk dijadikan daging sate. Kalau tak kerna bende alah ni, entah bile lagi la aku nk pegang pisau.

Orang kate kalau nk potong daging ayam wat sate ni, kene tengok arah/bentuk otot ayam tu, kene potong melintang la, saiz kene cantek la etc etc. Aku da penin tengok tekstur daging ayam tu. Last2 aku potong je ikut suke. Janji tak besar dan kecik sangat, ngam2 nk cucuk lidi sate. zzz

Tapi syok jugak jadi tukang bakar sate. Berpeluh2 kot dok bakar sate tepi bara api, pastu bile sate da siap bakar, terus ambik masuk mulut. Aku rase sate ni paling sedap makan bile panas2 camni ar, lepas angkat dari tempat bakar.

Hasil yang gagal - macam sate 'geseng' (hangus dalam Bahasa Jawa) - dengan sate yang patah lidi sebab terbakar, sebab placing sate yang tak betul atas tempat bakar - pon aku ratah gak. Belasah je, lagi elok dari membazer.

Maka di hari yang bermakne ni, punye la banyak hidangan cam pizza buatan kakak aku, nasi arab buatan makcik aku, roti jala, kari kambing, kambing bakar hingge la ke air putih yang campur jeli buah dan Nata de coco - yang aku tak tau pe name rasminya. Tapi x makan pon sume ni. Sambil mengipas sate, sambil tu la mulut mengunyah. Sambil letak sate mentah atas tempat bakar, smbil tu gak la perut ak da penuh makan sate. Make hidangan2 laen aku pon tak makan sangat.

Puas bakar sate, bakar daging kambing plak. Aku makan 3-4 slices, badan da melayang2. Aku cari katil, pastu aku terbongkang smpai petang. Bangun2 tido, tengok2 tetamu pon da takde da. zzz

Malam yang cerah

2011-09-02T00:16:00.000+08:00

'Cerah' sungguh malam2 aku untuk dua tiga minggu ni. Sebab xtau knape, aku tetibe susah gile nk tdo.

Insomnia?

Agaknye.

Baringla atas katil, bilik gelap ngan sunyi camne sekalipon, mmg aku amek mase 2-3 jam baru bole tido. Dan kadang2 terlajak 4-5 jam.

Memang seksa weh takleh tido diwaktu aku perlu tido. Bayangkan esoknya nk msk kje kol 9, campur mase mandi ngan mase yg terbuang atas jalan sebab tggu traffic lights dan jem, busuk2 kne gak bangun kol 8, pastu malam tu da pukul 5 pg ko takleh tido lagi padehal da terbaring atas katil dari kol 2 lagi.

Seksa, seksa...

Ade satu ari tu, pasal takleh tido smpai kol 9 pg, ak batalkan je niat keje pastu pasang niat MC je aritu, mls nk msk kje kol 10. Takde hal sebnanye nk g kje camtu, tp nnti kpale mesti weng teruk, tambah plak dgn mata panda. Aku ambil berat persepsi orang sekeliling je. MC je senang cite.

Pastu satu ari lagi, kes susah nk tido jugak, berjaye gak tido2 last2 kol 5 pg. Bukak2 mata, tu pon sebab osmet kejut, tengok jam da kol 11. Maka aku pon buat panggilan kecemasan kepada bos, "Saya MC arini bos. Maap banyak2"

Dan dikala dinihari hari raya, sekali lagi tak bole tido smpai kol 630 pagi. Pastu mak kejot lak kol 730 pagi soh siap2 g smayang raya. Segar je rase mase semayang raye, tapi g raye rumah atuk, ak da cari port baring pastu tido. zzz

Dan sebab tu la malam ni ak bantai susu untuk senang tido.

Sesungguhnya tido itu...satu nikmat yang besar. Tido2 skang.

Dua minggu sudah

2011-08-17T02:04:00.007+08:00

Jadi dah lebih dua minggu masuk bulan puasa ni. Atau lebih tepat masuk hari ke-17. Dan lebih kurang dua minggu lagi bole sambut raya. Tapi aku masih lagi tak jejak kaki ke bazar ramadhan.

Seriously, aku tak terase langsung excited nak g bazar ramadhan. Untuk berbuka ni , tak terase excited langsung nk beli juadah seploh jenis ke, air kaler laen2 ke, nasik warna pelangi ke, mahupun Justin Bubur. Apekah natang tu? Tengok bawah ni.

Memang WTFBBQOMG.

Dan bulan puasa ni aku pon xde kemahuan ataupun hasrat untuk berbuka melantak sampai kembong perot cam aram, cam orang laen makan buffet kat McD la, iftar secare buffet kat hotel la, all-you-can-eat steamboat dan segala jadah lagi yang tetiba melambak2 menjelang bulan puasa ni macam melambaknye tudung Hana Tajima kat Jalan TAR tu.

Ok. Ade la sekali la aku berbuke kat Sate Kajang Haji Samuri minggu lepas. Itupon sebab plan untuk makan sate arnab dgn sorang mamat ni dah delay selame hampir tujuh bulan. Mula2 mamat sorang ni ajak2 ayam aku untuk makan sate arnab, pastu aku pon tanpa menggerakkan neuron otak, terus je lidah pantas berbicare "Ok set jom". Tapinya, atas sebab2 mrepek cam tibe2 nk balik kampung last minute walaupon da plan, plan sate arnab ni tertunda hampir 20 kali. Last2 dapat gak makan aritu mase berbuke. Tapi makan berdua je dgn mamat ni. Memang agak gay la makan camni. zzz

Dari sudut baeknya, aku tak membazir. Nasih baik. Agaknye sebab secara separa-sedar, aku selalu ingat pesan abah aku, "Menyimpan la duet selagi boleh. Nanti kalau ade ape2 hal, boleh pakai duit tu".

Jugak aku xde trase nk beli baju Melayu baru untuk raya kali ni. Bila balik rumah, tengok baju2 raya taun2 sudah, lawa lagi tapi jarang gile pakai padehal beli kemaen mahal. Maka kali ni aku putuskan untuk pakai baju raya yg dua taun sudah punyer. Kang kalau pakai baju raya taun lepas, orang prasan plak. Pakai baju raya dua taun sudah, kurang sket orang prasan.

Kedekut, of me you might think, but not I am

(in honour of Master Yoda)

Jadi tinggal kurang lagi dua minggu, harap2 puasa aku taun ni bermakna pada jiwa dan raga. Aku nk gak bayar zakat seblom terlupe ni, tapi xnampak plak lagi kaunter bayar zakat kat mane2. zzz

Selamat berpuase.

Of Being More Than Just Friends

2011-07-17T21:28:00.058+08:00

Unrequited love is love that is not openly reciprocated or understood as such, even though reciprocation is usually deeply desired.

That is the definition, according to Wikipedia.

So then, let me tell you a story. A story about unrequited love.

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Dan hadirnya menyentuh hatiku

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It began on some day in year 2010. It was when I added her as a friend in Facebook. We are already friends since we did study at the same school. At first, we didnt talk much. But then, she always wrote her status and experiences at her own Wall. It was a frequent occurence. She did that almost everyday, few times in a day. And seeing all that, sometimes I replied and commented on her Wall.

As time passed by, I commented on her Wall more often, and it was becoming quite a habit to me. She did replied the comments given.

There were times when she didnt posted anything for one day, or two days, and I began to ask myself, where had she gone? And I felt lonely, like I had nobody to talk to. I wondered, why?

As we grew closer, we went out together a few times to watch movies at cinemas. We talked about a lot of things such as studies, jobs, national issues, etc etc. Nothing special happened during those times, except our friends suspected that we're in relationship because we always went out together. But we told them that nothing is going on. We are just friends. Just friends.

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Bila kau jauh, aku selalu rindu,

Bila kau ada, hati kan berbunga

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I don't know when, as our friendship grew, a part of me changed. It was the way I see her. I was beginning to see her more than just a friend.

I viewed her Facebook profile almost everyday. It's strange isn't it? Who will view Facebook profile of a friend more than twenty times a day? Well I did.

There were times when I felt uneasy when I did not see her updated her status on Facebook. And when she was back (by seeing her updated Facebook status), I smiled to myself. And I was wondering again, why?

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Kerna ku terhanyut mencintainya

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I questioned myself, do I see her as just a friend?

I kept thinking of her.

I was happy when she was around.

I was even happier when she agreed to go to cinema with me, together.

I felt lonely when she was not around.

At first I think I was confused. I asked and questioned myself everyday for a month. And finally I got the answer I sought.

I am falling for her. I am in love with her.

She filled the void in my heart. She swept away the emptiness of me. She brightened the dark room in my life. She gave me light. I longed for her. I wanted her.

But did she feel the same way like I did? I felt like I wanted to confess to her as soon as possible, but I had to wait for the right time. I knew the consequences if I were to do that.

I feared she might reject me.

I didn't want it to create an awkward situation between us, that could end our friendship.

But there was not much time left. She would soon leave her home here for her job in Johore. But I still hadn't tell her how I felt.

But I did tell her anyway,

It was not an easy task. I'd rather jog 50 km non-stop or give project presentation to our leturers. Those are nothing compared to telling her how I felt towards her.

On the Saturday night after I finished my work, I asked her to go for a dinner together. She had her dinner already, but she still agreed to accompany me.

As usual, she was the one who do the talking, I didn't talk much, except for being a active listener and respond appopriately. But she noticed something was wrong with me. I was not like the usual me. She knew that I was thinking on something else from the look on my face. I told her it was nothing to be worried about. I lied.

After I paid the dinner, we walked to the car together. I started the engine, and I raised the topics of concerned. And I told her how I felt towards her.

She was very shocked to hear that. It was a very awkward moment that night, as I predicted.

I sent her to her home and then I drove off to my home.

While driving, I questioned myself again hundred times, have I done the right thing?

What I feared most was that she might distance herself from me, but I might as well trying. And I did try. I was already aware of the risks involved. The rest, it's up to The Almighty.

On that very night, I couldn't put myself to sleep until dawn.

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Telah jauh terpisah, diriku dan dirimu, dalam ruang dan waktu

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Few days later, she texted me. She asked if I was angry with her because I didn't wrote anything on her Wall like usual for few days. Of course I didn't, after confessed to her, I felt it was very awkward to talk to her again. Don't you think so?

The strangest thing was, after that night, I still went out with her together for two times like nothing happened. We talked about that matter few times, and I gave my reasons why I wanted her, but she kept insisting me to just stick with being friends. She's fine with just being friends, but she worried I might not be able to handle it. I told her I'm going to be fine. Maybe.

She told me that I can still text her if I'm lonely.

She said that I can visit her at Johore anytime, if I wanted to.

But she also said this,

"I'm praying for you to get a good girl for yourself. You have been very kind me. I really appreciate that. But I'm afraid I won't be a good girlfriend to you. I don't want to break your heart someday"

Before she left to Johore, she told me this,

"Don't miss me =)"

I knew what she meant by that. She was telling me to give up on her, and find another girl for myself.

Should I give up on her, or keep on fighting for her?

I don't know what should I do now...

-The End-

And I might as well post this song

Bila Cinta (OST Lagenda Budak Setan)

Bila cinta kini tak lagi bermakna / My love doesn't mean anything now

Yang ku rasa kini hanyalah nestapa / I'm feeling nothing except for sorrow

Ditinggalkan cinta masa lalu / Since you left me that day

Dulu kau tawarkan manisnya janjimu / You gave me wonderful promises

Yang ku sambut itu dengan segenap hatiku / And I believed in you without any doubt

Bila engkau pergi tinggalkanku / But then, you left me

Hilangnya cintamu / I lost your love

Menusuk hatiku / It hurts my heart

Hinggaku memilih / Caused me to choose for,

Cinta yang fana / The transient love

Perginya dirimu / Your absence

Merobek jantungku / Tore my heart apart

Hinggaku terjatuh / And I fell down hardly

Dalam harapan / While I was getting my hopes up

Ku sebut namamu / I recite your name

Di setiap doaku / In each of my prayers

Ku kan setia di mana tempatmu / I'll always be at where you want to be

Yang ku dapat hanyalah bayangmu / But all I got was only your shadows

Hilangnya cintamu / I lost your love

Menusuk hatiku / It hurts my heart

Hinggaku memilih / Caused me to choose for

Cinta yang fana / The transient love

Perginya dirimu / Your absence

Merobek jantungku / Tore my heart apart

Hinggaku terjatuh / And I fell down hardly

Dalam harapan / While I was getting my hopes up

Dalam harapan.. / While I was getting my hopes up...

*This is self translated. Interpretations may be inaccurate. You have been warned. Any constructive comment or suggestion is most welcomed.

Babak Terakhir Sanjiyan Unkara

2011-07-10T22:31:00.008+08:00

Setelah sekian lama aku menanti dan menunggu, akhirnya tamat jugak manga ni aku baca.

Sorry kepada yang bukan fanboy atau newfag, korang mungkin tak penah dengar pasal manga 3X3 Eyes ni, tapi bagi aku, ni antara manga yang terbaik dan epic, macam Fist of North Star seperti yang aku penah cite dalam entry Tinju Big Dipper ni. Aku start layan manga ni masa Comic House Sdn Bhd terbitkan manga ni mase aku sekolah rendah kot, tahun 1996-1997 kot, tapi last2 terbitan terhenti mase jilid ke 32 kot atas sebab2 yang aku malas nk korek. Wadeshit, camne aku nak tau ape jadi kat Yakumo ngan Pai lepas ni???

And then, kisah selanjutnye tak dapat aku follow sebab noob lagi pasal internet. Lama aku tak follow manga ni....sampai la bila aku tau ada dedicated group yang scan manga ni da share di internet, memang aku terus bookmark website SazanQuest ni. Dan aku lawat website ni selalu untuk check updates chapter2 yang baru. Boleh je nak baca scan manga ni dalam Japanese, tapi aku cuma boleh baca hiragana, katana ngan kanji sket2 jer. Kalau nak pahamkan semua ayat tu, memang xpat la. Maka aku putuskan untuk menunggu group SazanQuest ni untuk abeskan jer scan dan upload chapter2 manga ni dalam English.

Dan penantian aku berbaloi. Pada hari ini 10 July 2011, SazanQuest upload gak jilid 40 aka jilid terakhir. Bayangkan stat baca dari tahun 199X, tapi tahun 2011 baru tau ending. FFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!! Kalau la aku fasih Bahasa Jepun...anyway, kudos again to SazanQuest.

Sebagai tribute untuk manga ni, maka aku pon spam cover jilid 1 sampai 40 kat sini. LOL.

3x3 Eyes Volume 01 3x3 Eyes Volume 02 3x3 Eyes Volume 03

3x3 Eyes Volume 04 3x3 Eyes Volume 05 3x3 Eyes Volume 06

3x3 Eyes Volume 07 3x3 Eyes Volume 08 3x3 Eyes Volume 09

3x3 Eyes Volume 10 3x3 Eyes Volume 11 3x3 Eyes Volume 12

3x3 Eyes Volume 13 3x3 Eyes Volume 14 3x3 Eyes Volume 15

3x3 Eyes Volume 16 3x3 Eyes Volume 17 3x3 Eyes Volume 18

3x3 Eyes Volume 19 3x3 Eyes Volume 20 3x3 Eyes Volume 21

3x3 Eyes Volume 22 3x3 Eyes Volume 23 3x3 Eyes Volume 24

3x3 Eyes Volume 25 3x3 Eyes Volume 26 3x3 Eyes Volume 27

3x3 Eyes Volume 28 3x3 Eyes Volume 29 3x3 Eyes Volume 30

3x3 Eyes Volume 31 3x3 Eyes Volume 32 3x3 Eyes Volume 33

3x3 Eyes Volume 34 3x3 Eyes Volume 35 3x3 Eyes Volume 36

3x3 Eyes Volume 37 3x3 Eyes Volume 38 3x3 Eyes Volume 39

3x3 Eyes Volume 40 (END)

Berubah...

2011-06-27T18:15:00.028+08:00

Da jadi tabiat buruk aku bila ada lagu yg aku rase agak sedap didengar, aku mesti loop lagu tu >9000 kali. Maka skang aku layan la lagu ni.

ST 12 - Jangan Pernah Berubah

Biarkan waktu teruslah berputar / Let the time passes by
Mencintai kamu penuh rasa sabar / While I'm loving you as always
Meski sakit hati ini kau tinggalkan / Even my heart breaks when you left me
Ku ikhlas 'tuk bertahan / I just keep it to myself

Cintaku padamu begitu besar / My love to you is real
Namun kau tak pernah bisa merasakan / But you never realize it
Meski sakit hati ini kau tinggalkan / Even my heart breaks when you left me
Ku ikhlas 'tuk bertahan / I just keep it to myself

Reff:[*]

Kau meninggalkanku tanpa perasaan / You left me just like that
Hingga ku jatuhkan airmata / I shed my tears for that
Kekecewaan ku sungguh tak berarah / My dissappointment is going nowhere
Biarkan ku harus bertahan / I just keep it to myself

[**]

Jangan pernah kau coba untuk berubah / Please dont try to be someone else
Tak relakan yang indah hilanglah sudah / I don't want to let something beautiful be gone
Jangan pernah kau coba untuk berubah /Please dont try to be someone else
Tak relakan yang indah hilanglah sudah / I'm not willing to let something beautiful be gone

Ulang Reff:[*] , [**]

Jangan pernah kau coba untuk berubah / Please dont try to be someone else
Ku relakan yang indah dalam hatinya / I will let your heart filled with happiness

*This is self translated. Interpretations may be inaccurate. You have been warned. Any constructive comment or suggestion is most welcomed.

Boss kawen!!!

2011-06-06T02:39:00.018+08:00

Cam da lama aku tak buat cerita bergambar...lol. Maksudnye da lama aku x buat entry yang disertain dengan gambar2. Kan orang selalu kata "A picture is worth a thousand words". Ade betol?

Maka biarlah aku start cerita bergambar ni skang jugak...

Gambar 01: Sesi berkumpul dan jugak bergambar kat depan opis sebelom bertolak ke destinasi di Bagan Datoh, Perak. Janji pukul 10 pagi, tapi last2 pukul 1030 baru nampak muka yang tabur janji tu. zzz

Gambar 02: Perjalanan bermula selambat pukul 11 pagi lebih sebab nak tunggu smpai ahli rombongan cukup. Ada aje yang sampai lambat.

Gambar 03: Berhenti rehat kat R&R Sungai Buloh sebab masing2 da mengadu perut kosong tak makan ape2 dari bangun tido smpai skang. zzz

Gambar 04, 05 & 06: Akhirnye ketemu jugak rumah boss setelah meredah jalan kampung dekat 2 jam. Bagan Datoh ni memang jauh ke barat, jauh dari Highway PLUS pastu dekat gile dengan muara Sungai Perak. Lepas makan, sesi bergambar dengan pengantin aka boss dan bini boss

Gambar 07: Geng2 boss dan yang sewaktu dengannya.

Gambar 08: Cenderahati dari tuan rumah sebelom kitorang balik. Memang kitorang pon tetamu last kat situ. Kitorang blah je, memang meja kerusi sume budak2 ni angkat susun kat tepi.

Gambar 09: Sebab malas ikot jalan yang sama aka Highway PLUS, maka ikut la jalan dalam yang lalu Sabak Bernam , Sungai Besar, Kuala Selangor etc etc. Tapi? Jem teruk...zzz. Da la aku yg drive, penat cam cb.

Sampai kat depan opis balik pukul 7 malam kot. Penat terok.

Aku yang dulu...

2011-06-05T01:30:00.009+08:00

Satu hari ni aku kuar ~~dating~~ jalan2 dgn seorang kawan perempuan aku. Aku namakan dia ni sebagai Gadis X je la, cincai kira. Kasi anonymous sket. Haha. Aku yg x makan dari pagi mmg simpan perut untuk ~~dating~~ outing dgn Gadis X kali ni. Da banyak kali aku ajak dia ~~dating~~ outing, tapi dia asyik busy jer. Tapi last2 berjaya gak aku ajak dia kuar kali ni.

Aku jemput dia dari rumah parents, pastu bergerak la kami ke satu shopping mall ni. ~~Dating~~ Outing kali ni macam yg lepas jugak, usha tiket wayang, beli tiket dan pastu makan sama2. Borak pasal hal kerja, hal study, kawan2 lama, ~~cinta~~ dan macam2 lagi.

Alkisah, kitorg tgk la movie Kung Fu Panda 2. Aku memang suke klu movie ni jenis yang ade sequel. Harus la tengok kan, baru bole tau jalan cite seterusnye. Abes tengok movie, aku pon anta la dia balik ke rumah sebab da malam kot. Tak silap aku, seblom dia kuar dari kereta, dia cakap camni kot:

"Tak sangka Faiz bole senyum rupanya, tak macam dulu"

Aku terkesima kejap. Jantung aku pon berenti kejap. Dan buat aku terfikir. Jadi aku yang dulu tak pernah senyum ke?

Tapi sebenarnya, ade betul cakap dia tu...

Aku flashback kejap ke zaman 7 hingga 10 taun yg lampau, zaman persekolahan menengah aku...

Adoiiii...

Aku malas betol nak flashback zaman skola dulu. Macam banyak memori hitam je. Dan memori2 hitam tu la yang buatkan aku tak selalu senyum mase tu.

Takpe. Yang berlalu biarkan berlalu.

Aku yang sekarang, akan terus maju ke depan, with my own way.

Sekali lagi, aku berbual pasal hal2 taman dalam hati ni...zzz

Qaseh Suci...

2011-05-23T22:41:00.018+08:00

Teruk gile blog. Da lama x update. Dah kata aku update bila aku rase nk menulis jer. Aku bukan blogwhore yg sket2 copy pasta tulisan, gamba2 orang lain masuk blog sendiri pastu dok promote blog sane sini suruh orang blog walking. Ini blog peribadi k.

KK. Cukup.

Macam da lama sangat aku tak tengok drama Melayu yang betol2 bole buatkan aku terpacak kat depan TV seblom drama tu stat. Last drama dlu yg menimbulkan fenomena camtu kat aku adelah drama.... Nur Kasih.

Skang ni melekat plak aku kat drama Nora Elena ni. Malas google? Klik je goddamn facebook fanpage link ni: Nora Elena

Tayang tiap2 ari Isnin-Khamis kol 7 malam kat TV3. Maka tadi lepas abes kerja kol 5:30 petang, terus aku bergegas pulang ke rumah. Rumah aku tak jauh dari opis, tapi kerana traffic jam yang macam wadeshit kat area Damansara, memang makan banyak masa klu nk drive keta balik ke rumah.

Aku sampai kat rumah td cantek kol 6:40 petang. Mmg sempat sangat ni nk tgk Nora Elena kat TV3 kol 7 malam ni. F Yeah!!!

Usha2 facebook, mmg ramai gak kawan2 yg wat status pasal Nora Elena ni. Ada yang share link video kat youtube, ade yg like page Nora Elena dan macam2 peel lagi. Aku bagi satu contoh mamat ni la...contohnya...

Memang gg...

Dan lagu tema pon bole tahan best sebab kena dgn jalan cerita drama ni. Cite banyak tak gune. Post link youtube kot.

Kisah Nero dan Meevo

2011-05-01T01:05:00.006+08:00

Mungkin kawan2 aku ade yg taktau lagi pasal kisah ni. Kisah malang yg menimpa Nero dan Meevo. Sape tu Nero dan Meevo? Teruskan membace ye...

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24 April 2011, pukul 1100 pagi - Aku jalan ke tempat parking keta kat area rumah sewa aku untuk mula bekerja (ya aku kerja ari Ahad). Dari jauh nampak lagi kelibat kereta. Aku teruskan berjalan. Sampai2 je dekat situ, aku terkesima jap.

Apsal ada bata kt bawah keta aku ni?

Eh?...

Apsal rim ngan tayar keta aku...

Hilang???

Empat2 bijik hilang. Tinggal bata je yg tampung keta aku dr lantai simen. Wadeshit sungguh. Mungkin gambar di bawah bole menggambarkan emosi aku mase ni.

Aku tarik napas jap. Capai enset dlm poket, pastu snap gamba keta aku yg tak beroda dah. Aku naik balik kat rumah sewa aku.

Mase ni osmet aku pelik dah sbb tgk aku naik balik. Dia tanye aku,

Ko salah jadual ke ape ni? Apsal naik balik?

Aku pon bgtau la rumet aku ape yg da jadi. Rumet aku tak caye. Dia igtkan aku maen2. Sekali aku tunjuk gamba, die pon terkejot beruk.

Dia pon bgtau osmet aku lg sorang. Yg ni pon x caye gak. Aku tnjuk gamba baru la percaye.

Make aku n osmet pon bersiap2 nk g balai polis dan pondok pakgad nk wat repot. Gi dlu kat pondok pakgad, gtau keta ilang, baru la derang wat2 terkejut ngan baru nk terhegeh2 nk itu la, ini la. Pastu mintak copy salinan repot polis. GG pakgad.

Gi repot kat Balai Polis TTDI. Pastu disuruh plak aku n osmet g jumpe pegawai penyiasat kat Balai Polis Mutiara Damansara. zzz

Sampai2 sane, tgk pegawai penyiasat tgh maen Iphone. Pastu kata kat kitorang,

Dik tunggu jap ye? Jap lagi masuk.

zzz

Pastu msuk jumpe pegawai penyiasat, soal siasat sket2, pastu diorang anta sorg photographer g crime scene. Amek gamba sket2, pastu blah.

And then aku tatau ape outcome siasatan polis lepas tu. gg.

Dan dipendekkan cite, duit bonus aku melayang sbb beli rim baru nk ganti rim yg ilang tu. Keta aku baru 2 minggu kuar kedai, rim n tayar da kene rembat.

Pencuri laknat.

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Sebab phobia dgn kehilangan rim ngan tayar ni, aku x tido rumah sewa da. Aku ulang alik rumah parent kat Klang dgn opis, walopun jauh sket tp ok la gak. Aku pon cam da lame x balik rumah.

28 April 2011, sekitar jam 2122 - aku terime brite yg agak mengejut. Dalam SMS yg rumet aku anta, dia kata keta Myvi dia pon jadi mangsa.

Tak hilang sume tayar, tapi hilang dua tayar & rim sebelah pemandu.

Dengar berite ni, lagi sekali emosi aku mencanak2 naik macam gamba kat bawah ni

Dari opis, aku fetch osmet yg keje kat TTDI ni pastu g balik rumah sewa. G tgk keta. Hmmm. Tinggal bata gak.

Pasang tayar spare satu pastu pasang jek untuk tahan keta. Pakai bata mane elok. Rosak skirt keta.

Da setel bende ni, kitorang osmet gerek berempat bergerak (lagi) ke Balai Polis Mutiara Damansara. Sampai balai, cakap nk wat repot pasal tayar hilang, terus polis tu menyampuk,

Kat mane hilang ni? Kat Flora?

Memang notorious area rumah sewa aku ni. Kitorang tau lame dah, tapi x sangka plak terkene batang hidung sendiri kali ni. Aku ngan osmet aku. Dalam tempoh kurang seminggu. gg

Setel wat repot. Tapi aku rase repot tu tak kemane pon. Pencuri tu bebas lagi berkeliaran. Repot tu skadar utk rekod je kot.

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Itulah dia kisah Nero dan Meevo. Kat bawah ni bole tgk gamba Nero dan Meevo yg jadi mangse pencurik. gg

Pencurik celake.

Ku Menunggu...

2011-03-30T02:16:00.023+08:00

Mase terluang aku abeskan check email dr Jobstreet. Apply mane2 keje yg aku rase seswai. Tapi stakat ni bape kerat je yg reply aku nyer applications. zzz. Da bosan sgt layan lagu Rossa ni. Sedap. Memang aku putar lagu ni je skang.

Rossa - Ku Menunggu Lyrics / Rossa – I'm Waiting

Ku menunggu, ku menunggu kau putus dengan kekasihmu
I'm waiting, I'm waiting for you to break up with your lover

Tak akan ku ganggu kau dengan kekasihmu
I won't get in your way with her

Ku kan selalu di sini untuk menunggumu
I'll always be here, waiting for you

Cinta itu ku berharap kau kelak kan cintai aku
I'm always hoping that you will love me, someday

Saat kau telah tak bersama kekasihmu
When you're no longer with her

Ku lakukan semua agar kau cintaiku
I did everything to make you love me

reff:

haruskah ku bilang cinta
Should I confess to him?

hati senang namun bimbang
My heart is excited but kind of worried

ada cemburu juga rindu
I'm both jealous and missing you

ku tetap menunggu
I will always be waiting

haruskah ku bilang cinta
Should I confess to him?

hati senang namun bimbang
My heart is excited but kind of worried

dan kau sudah ada yang punya
But you're already taken

ku tetap menunggu
I will always be waiting

datang padaku, ku tahu kelak kau kan datang kepadaku
Come to me, I know that one day, you will come to me

saat kau sadar betapa ku cintaimu
The moment when you realize how much I really love you

ku akan selalu setia tuk menunggumu
I will always waiting for you, patiently

repeat reff

haruskah ku bilang cintaShould I confess to him?

hati senang namun bimbang
My heart is excited but kind of worried

ada cemburu dan juga rindu
I'm both jealous and missing you

dan aku tetap menunggu
And I will always be waiting for you

haruskah ku bilang cintaShould I confess to him?

hati senang namun bimbang
My heart is excited but kind of worried

dan kau sudah ada yang punya
But you're already taken

ku tetap menunggu
I will always be waiting

(aku tetap menunggu) ku tetap menunggu
(I will always be waiting) I will always be waiting

(aku tetap menunggu) ku tetap menunggu
(I will always be waiting) I will always be waiting

ku tetap menunggu
I will always be waiting

*This is self translated. Interpretations may be inaccurate. You have been warned. Any constructive comment or suggestion is most welcomed.

Perginya...

2011-03-28T01:37:00.003+08:00

Ari sabtu lepas x kerja, jd cam biase dok melepak kt rumah untuk cas balik tenaga yg hilang dek bekerja. Di kala Sabtu malam, mase aku tgh dok ~~maen dota~~ layan internet, tetibe dapat call dari mak aku.

Helo mak, assalamualaikum. Ada apa?

Walaikumsalam, faiz. Kerja ke arini?

Tak. Cuti arini. Kenape.

Oh. Kalau boleh, mntak balik n terus pegi rumah nenek kat Bukit Kapar, ada tahlil kat sini. Ada orang meninggal.

Ooo. ok mak.

Dan aku terus ~~mandi~~ bersiap pakai baju melayu. Drive keta, isi minyak sket dan terus meredah LDP, Federal Highway utk ke Bukit Kapar.

Mak aku bagitau, orang yg meninggal tu anak angkat makcik aku. Kiranye sepupu angkat aku la sbb makcik aku tu adik mak aku.

Aku x kenal sangat sepupu angkat ni sebab jarang sangat jumpe. Aritu mase kakak aku kawen tu la aku perasan kehadiran dia. Dia tolong2 kemas meja makan n hidang makanan mase tu.

Sekarang tau2 je da meninggal sbb serangan sawan...atau jantung kot.

Jadi kawan2 mane yg ade baca blog aku ni sila sedekahkan alfatihah untuk arwah (lelaki).

Alfatihah.

Hari yang......panjang

2011-02-27T04:22:00.006+08:00

Memang panjang pon. Waktu keje seblum tu pon panjang. Keje 6 hari berturut-turut. Da macam stended Bangla. Tapi berbaloi sebab dapat off day Sabtu ngan Ahad. Seblum tu manjang je off day mase weekdays, takpon off day 'longkang'. Sungguh tak bermakna off day camtu. zzz

Oleh sebab aku taknak lagi terbitkan status facebook berupa 'Home Alone #: ' (yg macam aku slalu buat seblom ni, i.e. Home Alone 4: Alone in Damansara, The Loneliness Killing Me etc etc kalau korang prasan la). Maka aku pon tegak je ikot osmet aku yg nak antakan adik dia balik ke kolej kat Pahang...Pahang? Ye Pahang. Kat Kuala Lipis. Tegak je aku ikot.

Kalau tak ikot? Kat rumah nanti layan facebook, movie, baca /k/opitiam, dan diikuti dengan game DoTA berpam-pam.

Perjalan bermula seawal jam 10:30 pagi kot, dimulai dengan sarapan pagi kt warung roti canai milik bumiputera kat Sungai Penchala. Bantai nasi lemak sepam. Terasa macam dah berzaman anak tekak tak merasa nikmatnye sepinggan nasi lemak. Sambalnye....nikmat sungguh. Kalau shift keje tu asyik masuk petang, so paham2 je la bangun pagi...eh tengah hari pukul brape. Memang x kenal erti sarapan pagi la. Tapi bila sekali da merasa, terasa lengkap sekejap hidup ni.

Perjalanan diteruskan, tapi singgah jap kat Plaza Low Yat. Osmet aku dan adik beliau usha2 dan beli ape yg patut. Aku plak usha2 gadjet terkini dan sensasi. Ikut nafsu, terase nak beli monitor baru yang bole cucuk HDMI cable, bole gak aku bawak XBOX kat Klang tu ke rumah sewa ni dan maen kat monitor tu. Beli XBOX secara perkongsian 50-50 dgn adik aku tapi xpat nak layan sebab tinggal kat Klang ape maknenye? Tapi lepas tarik napas 5-6 pam, nafsu tu aku tolak tepi dulu.

Urusan kat Plaza Low Yat da selesai, journey mesti diteruskan...ke Kuala Lipis. Aku selaku parasit rombongan layan borak2 dgn osmet aku selaku pemandu sambil layan kuaci yg beli kat Giant Selayang. Tabiat buruk aku. Suka makan kuaci, bila sekali da makan, tak bole nak berenti. zzz

Sesampai di pekan Bentong, singgah gerai tepi jalan makan tengah hari. Abes makan sambung lagi jalan. Kali ni tuka driver lak. Adik osmet aku drive dari Bentong sampai la masuk kolej dia kat Kuala Lipis. Masuk kejap dalam bilik asrama diorang. Mase ni memang mengambit kenangan silam. Suasana bilik tu yg tak ubah macam bilik kat Village 1 kat UTP dulu. Pastu tengok ke luar tingkap bole usha awek2 (dan jugak balak) beriadah; tak kire la berjoging ke, maen bola ke, berbasikal ke etc. Mase ni teringat kat zaman sekola menengah. Zaman aku tegar beriadah demi gaya hidup sihat. Zaman badan aku fit dan sihat. Sekarang memang gg. Dulu memang favourite aku berjogging, skang favourite aku permainan online tanpa batasan. Main bola pon da dekat 4 taun tak main. Kalau main balik skang, memang taraf kaki bangku la aku.

Matlamat da tercapai - anta osmet adik aku balik kolej. Skang jalan balik plak. Highway Karak yg sunyi dan gelap memang bole menegangkan bulu roma. Sebaek xde pape kejadian pelik sepanjang perjalanan.

Bila da masuk KL, terasa malam masih lagi muda. Telefon member nk ajak lepak, diorang kabar bole join main bola tampar kat sport complex kat Taman Titiwangsa. Bola tampar? Dengan seluar jeans dan T-shirt, memang aku dok tepi je la cuti mata tengok member2 maen bola tampar. Mase ni terdetik balik niat nk stat beriadah balik. Macam berjogging la. Tapi biasenye niat tinggal niat. Last2 tarik gak selimut even da kunci jam loceng timing habis baek punyer. zzz

Abes sesi cuti mata tengok bola tampar, g plak area Dato' Keramat. Makan2, minum2 sambil tengok bola kat sini. MU menang mudah 4-0. Mudah. Budak2 lain da balik tapi osmet aku n sorang lagi mamat ni layan lagi borak smpai kol 3 pagi lebih. Macam2 cerita. Dari cite pasal line streamyx kat rumah down, isu kerja, kereta, gaji, gathering, student life, percutian kat Singapore sampai la isu cinta dan kahwin. zzz

Ngantuk gile vavis mase ni. Osmet aku ngan mamat ni je layan borak. Aku pasif je pastu nyampuk sket2 je spaye x nampak la cam bosan sangat. Ingat bile sampai rumah nk tido, tengok mesti ikot gak tabiat buruk aku; balik rumah on PC, check facebook, email, blog feed, /k/opitiam etc etc

Tapi yang penting, skang da ade kaki kalau nk ajak2 g holiday. So plan pasni, holiday.

p/s: Aku yakin Mamat M mesti bace entry ni, so pastikan plan holiday menjadi. Aku tegak je. Off day tu bole je adjust. Mudah.

KK tido2. da kol 4:51 am da ni. zzz

Hari yang teruk

2011-02-14T01:34:00.005+08:00

Ceritanye bermula bila aku balik klang, aku baru prasan yg selipar yg aku bawak tu seblah lain, seblah lg lain. Rupenye sebelah lagi tu selipar housemate aku, tersalah ambik punyer pasal.

FFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU~!!!!

Ari jumat lepas, sbb selipar tu seblah lain, aku malas pakai selipar. Aku gerak awal g masjid nak semayang jumaat sbb lepas tu nk masuk opis utk shift petang. Lepas sembayang, aku g kt rak kasut, tengok2 kasut aku da lesap. Aku memang pasti tempat aku letak kasut tu. Cilake. Kompem kasut hilang ni.

FFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU~!!!!

Last2 aku pakai gak selipar sebelah lain2 tu utk g opis. Mase ni kabut sket sebab kasut ilang. Parking keta, bukak bonet, tutup bonet. Jalan 4,5 langkah, pastu aku prasan poket aku apsal kosong semacam je ni? Cek2 xde kunci keta dalam keta dlm poket. Cek lagi 3,4 kali. Pastu aku pandang balik keta aku yg da berkunci. Adekah...

Memang suwey ari tu. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Tinju Big Dipper

2010-12-23T01:37:00.004+08:00

Sape2 yg tegar layan manga keluaran Comic House dulu mesti penah bace manga Pencak Nujum atau tajuk asalnye adela Fist of the North Star (北斗の拳 Hokuto no Ken, atau "Fist of the Big Dipper").

Bagi aku, manga ni memang epik. Skill, pencak silat hero bername Kenshiro ngan hero2 (dan juge heroin2) dlm cite ni memang unik n special, x macam manga2 yg laen. Bunuh orang dgn cucuk accupoint maut orang tu jer. Pastu mesti nk kuar ayat "Kau sudah mati" and then 2,3 saat pastu bersepai badan orang tu meletop dari dalam. zzzz

Nyesal jugak ak x beli manga ni awal2 dlu dan sempurnakan koleksi. Dlu mase skola menengah tiap2 kali outing mesti aku g satu kedai buku ni beli stok2 sisa manga ni yg x abes jual. Tapi sayangnye x lengkap koleksi aku, skang cume ade volume 1-7, pastu 23-27. Manga ni tamat jilid ke-27.

Smpaikan bapak aku pon try baca manga ni, da abes bace smpai volume 7, dia tanye aku balik,

"Mana buku yang lain? Takkan ni ajer?"

zzzzzzzzzzzzz

X nyesal aku beli XBOX360 6 bulan lepas. Pengeluar video game KOEI dan Omega Force keluarkan game based on manga ni kat XBOX360 dan PS3.

Fist of the North Star: Ken's Rage

Aku perasan pasal game ni dari trailer kat youtube. Mase tu, aku rase macam,

FFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU~~~!!!!!!!!!!!

Terus aku beli game ni.

Minggu lepas aku ulang alik rumah parents kt Klang n opis kat PJ sebab temankan adik2 yg kesepian, mak bapak aku xde kat rumah. Peluang ni aku ambik utk cirit maen game ni. Balik keje terus main. zzzzzzzzzz

Pendapat aku sebagai gamer: Game ni x gagal, sebab banyak kekalkan elemen2 penting macam:

ultimate skill watak2 utama cth Hokuto Hundred Crack Fist
tunjukkan watak2 penting, contoh Shin, Rei, Toki, Raoh, Thouzer, Juda etc etc. Apefak kalau x tunjuk Toki dan Raoh wehh?? Nasib baik ade watak2 penting ni
dialog2 penting, contoh "Kau sudah mati" dari Kenshiro. awesomeness +9999
jalan cerita dan plot masih lagi kekal. xde tokok tambah kot

Yang kurangnye?

Story mode cuma sampai part Kenshiro kalahkan Raoh/Leo jer. dalam manga asal patutnye sampai part Kenshiro kalahkan Kaiou dan Bolge. Aku harap ade sambungan pasni.

Mungkin,

Fist of the North Star: Ken's Rage - Part 2???

Let's hope so

Of 2010

2010-12-20T00:44:00.017+08:00

Tahun 2010.

Macam awal sangat plak nk publish entry ni. Rase cam nk publish hari terakhir tahun 2009 atau 31 Disember 2010, tapi kang bertangguh mesti lupe jadinya.

Apa yang aku da buat tahun 2010 ni?

Januari - Mac: Memandangkan aku baru abes study bulan Disember 2009, tiga bulan pertama tahun 2009 ni memang ak abeskan dgn dok ngabiskan beras mak bapak kt rumah. Baki duit scholar pon ade lagi, so bole la duet tu wat isi minyak atau duit blanje kalau member2 aku ajak g outing etc etc

Punggung trase panas dan gatal bile menjelang Mac, duit baki scholar da abes, perut makin buncit, pipi makin tembam, pastu bertambah panas bile member2 post kt facebook kecoh pasal da dapat kerja. Aku yg dok menganggur ni trase da sampai mase ak angkat punggung dari kerusi ni cari kerja utk menjamin mase depan aku yg suram ni.

Mase ni la gelabah nk update resume, photostat sijil2, amek gamba passport - ok yg ni aku skip sbb aku x suke amek gamba mase muka aku nampak tembam teruk kesan nganggur tiga bulan. Last2 aku pakai je gamba ukuran passport yg ak amek mase 2nd year dulu. Bila g interview, mesti interviewer tegur muka aku yg sebenar lain benar banding dlam gambar. Nampak sangat aku gemuk sbb jd ular sawa kt rumah. zzzzzzzzzzz

Mase ni ak mmg x anta resume kt kompeni2 Oil & Gas sbb mase tu ak rase kerja tak kena dengan jiwa n minat aku - tapi aku pon x tau aku ni minat ape. Sume resume yg aku anta mase ni aku byk anta kt kompeni2 selain O&G.

8 Mac 2010 - aku stat training (lepas lulus interview) utk keje bawah TM sebagai Technical Support atau name x glemernye customer service. 3 bulan training pastu ade assessment yg klu x pass, bole update balik resume tu utk cari kerja lain. Dan aku pass. Honestly dan aku x quit lagi kerja ni sampai skang.

Jun - pindah rumah sewa kt area Damansara. Klu ikutkan bole je duduk rumah mak bapak, tapi ak x suke sbb badan aku ni akan naik berat badan klu duduk lame sgt kt rumah mak bapak. Sbb byk sgt makanan kt rumah kot. Mulut asyik nk mengunyah jer. Sebab tu aku pilih utk duduk rumah sewa dgn kwn2. Bole maintain berat badan sbb hidup stail bujang. zzzzzzz

Oktober - dapat tuka department dari Technical Support TM Streamyx ke Technical Support TM Unifi plak. adekah ini bole dikira satu promotion? Mungkin. Sebab ramai gak officemates apply tapi xpat. Nasib baik ak dapat. Ak sbenarnye da naik nyampah dgn 2,3 muke supervisor kt office lama tu.

Tapi bila da dekat 9 bulan kerja camni, komfem rase bosan dan x puas hati akan timbul, bile tengok member2 satu course ME dulu, skang plak rate2 sume da pakat kerja best, gaji banyak, pakai keta mahal. Honda City? Toyota Vios? Suzuki Swift? Suzuki SX4? Aku masih lagi pakai keta ISWARA warisan bapak aku sejak 5 taun lepas. Mase ni la otak aku da rase menyesal sbb x blaja sungguh2 dulu dan cari kerja bagus.

Nafsu dan akal rasional aku berperang wat mase ni.

Perkare baiknye ISWARA ni ade byk sentimental values yg aku rase klu nk cite byk sangat kang, korang bole rase geli. Xyah kot cite.

Tapi masih ok rasenye lagi sbb takde lagi member yg pakai Proton Inspira wat mase ni. Bole terima lagi neh.

sebabnye?

Inspira > all

(dengan nada sarkastik)

Aku rase da sampai mase utk aku cari kerja lain. Walaupun aku ok je dgn kerja ni, tapi demi orang tua yg da penat besarkan dan tampung kos pendidikan ko dari tadika smpai universiti, xkan nak kerja camni je sedangkan kelulusan aku ni Ijazah Sarjana Kejuruteraan Mekanikal?

Tapi kerja ape pun, aku x suke nk guna 'connection' klu aku tau kerja tu aku x minat dan tak nak. Kalau aku mampu n layak dapat sesuatu kerja tu, xpayah guna 'connection' pon takpe.

Aku tak suke guna 'connection' sbb in the end, aku tau aku tak bole perform dalam kerja sbb aku memang dari awal, memang x layak utk kerja tu. Bile x layak tapi guna kabel, mesti bende2 camni akan jadi -kena marah slalu dengan bos, jiwa kacau, balik keje rase tension, g kerja rase tension, kerja x siap - sumenye sbb xde enthusiasm dalam kerja yg diperoleh dgn gunakan 'connection'.

Pakcik aku ade cube nk tlg aku dgn gunekan 'connection' dia utk dptkan aku kerja. Tapi honestly aku x prefer care camni. Korang boleh kate aku sombong - tapi aku tau ape akan jadi nanti kalau aku go with the flow. Jadila bende2 macam aku sebutkan kat atas tu. Last2 memang x kemane la dgn kerja tu. xde kepuasan n career growth pon susah.

Mesti ade orang akan kate aku ni bodo dan naive sbb tak ikot telunjuk orang tua yg lagi berpengalaman dan banyak makan garam - lantaklah diorang nk kate ape. Tapi tak bole ke kalau sekali dalam seumur hidup ni, biar aku sendiri yang tentukan hala tuju hidup?

At least ade kepuasan sbb keputusan tu kite sndiri yg buat. Berjaye ke x berjaye kemudian tu cerita lain la.

So bole kate itu la isu utama dalam kepale otak aku utk taun 2010 ni - inferiority complex???

Honestly, aku rase aku cam ade bad luck dalam bab2 romance ni. Bad timing, wrong place, pikiran aku lambat mature, tak paham sangat jiwa perempuan, insensitive dan macam2 lg. In fact, aku rase kegagalan last relationship aku dulu, memang mainly sebab kebodohan aku sendiri. Dan masih lagi dalam dilema sampai sekarang.

Aku ade gak cube bangun dri lubang gelap ni, try luck dgn 2,3 perempuan yg ak berkenan - kuar date 2,3 kali tapi last2 senyap camtu jer. Macam diorang menjauhkan diri dari aku. Ape suwenye aku ni? Tuhan saja yang tahu betape sunyi dan peritnya hidup sorang2 camni.

Sekarang aku masih lagi mencuba nasib, dgn seorg perempuan ni - stakat ni respon dr dia macam positif - atau aku yg terlebih prasan - tapi maybe x perlu cite lebih sangat - sebab ini maybe gak berakhir dgn ending bertepuk sebelah tangan - tapi aku yg pasti ak akan melawan nasib utk tamatkan kemarau ni. So wish me luck guys, and girls.

Tahun 2011?

Cari kerja lain
Beli Inspira
Beli rumah
Jatuh cinta sekali lagi, n klu ade jodoh - nikah.

Boleh kire azam tahun 2011 ke bende2 kt atas tu?

Boleh.

Kepingin...

2010-10-07T22:53:00.009+08:00

Trase cam nk beli mende alah ni.

Drawing tablet

atau sketching tablet

Sebab?

Kadang2 bosan gak wat entry blog dgn text, gamba n video sajer.

Kalau nk gak wat entry ngan care lukisan.

Nak lukis pastu scan, aku xde scanner plak. Pastu satu keje plak nk edit gamba tu nk ksi buang noise etc etc

Nak lukis pakai mouse kat PAINT mmg practically boleh. Tapi susah. zzzzzzzz

Kan senang klu ada drawing/sketching tablet ni. Tapi harga plak yg wat aku ragu2 jap.

Aku pun bukan nk melukis tegar pastu wat blog post. Occasionally jer.

Sebenarnye ak terpengaruh gak dengan ade sorg mamat tu yg ceritakan kisah idup die melalui lukisan. Dia post bukan dalam blog, tapi dalam forum Lowyat.net. Kisah idup die mungkin biase tpi stail lukisan dia tu mmg ak admire. Dan jugak guts dia utk post kisah idup dia kat forum, yg mane lagi tinggi risikonyer utk kne flame, kutuk n kne bash.

Kalau korang nk usha, boleh g kat link ni

Daily LI

atau pon,

Daily Campus

atau klu malas nk browse satu-satu page thread tu, bole usha cni,

Tetsu Art @ Facebook

Memang banyak part yg LOL dan ROTFL.

Nak jugak...

2010-10-06T00:50:00.004+08:00

Da stereotaip kot, n da trlalu common perkara mobile blogging ni, cume aku

je lambat banyak. Sebab seblom pakai enset warisan keluarga je. X bape nak

canggih

Nokia 3310. Bapak aku ksi dengan simcard skali. Adiah masuk U agaknya. Dua

bulan pertama pakai, naik jemu n muak ak sambut cal dr kawan2 mak ak (ye no

tu seblom tu mak ak pakai dlu). Jenuh ak gtau derang yg mak ak xgne lg no

tu, tapi ak yg gne. Hayat enset ni x lame; mgken staun je kot. Otw blk UTP

ikot highway, enset ni ak tertinggal kt dalam tandas kawasan rehat Tanjung

Malim. That's the last time I saw her.

Motorola ####. Ak x igt model ape. nk cri dr Google images pon malas. Beli

sebab enset Nokia 3310 tu ilang. Beli kat Greentown Mall, Ipoh. Org dok Ipoh

mesti tau tempat ni, lubuk enset murah. Pakai dalam 2,3 sem je kot. Pastu

swap dengan adik aku punya Samsung A137.

Samsung A137. Pakai sebab cambest enset flip ni. Aku mase ni tgh mood minat

gile enset flip sebab pengaruh enset tu dlm Jdrama. Sume stok2 ni pakai

enset flip pastu ade strap fancy. Laki pon same je zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

Nokia 2600. Aku amek sebab bapak ak offer nak bagi enset ni; sebab tgk enset

samsung tu da daif sangat agaknye. Scratch+parut yg tak terbilang. Pakai la

dalam setaun, last2 rosak+bengong sebab jatuh dalam air. Jemur+anginkan

enset 2,3 ari tapi pastu bengong. Bukak je kamera, mesti enset hang n bateri

cpat abes. zzz

Last2 beli gak enset baru HTC Aria. Berbulan2 wat market research enset yg

rege, stail, spec, plan bulanan dan jename yg berkenan. Tapi terpakse gak

tuka no sebab Maxis mcb gile babi sukar procedure nk beli enset sebab no

maxis tu daftar name bapak aku. Last2 sebat je no baru Digi. No lama maxis

tu bapak ak plak yang pakai. So please be informed.

Gamba? X sah blog post klu xde gamba....blogwhore kate la. Aku bkn. Tapi nak

gak attach gamba. Gamba workstation/gamestation yg bersepah kt blik.

zzzzzzzz

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Season Break is Over

2010-09-26T01:50:00.011+08:00

Season break la sangat. Lame teruk ak x menulis kat sini. padehal mmg xde mood n modal nk menulis kat sini.

Tapi sebenanye tu mostly sbb sebelum ni kamera enset cap ayam abes. Nak upload pon xde mood sbb blur sgt.

Aku bukan blogwhore, yg jenis bile sekecil2 bende pon nk cite. Xpon sikit2 nk snap gamba pastu post kat blog. Ak cume update bile ade mood n bile rase perlu jer.

Nak jadikan cite, arini jalan2 raye kat rumah sorang member ex-UTP, Dayah. Dah die jemput kate ade open house, datang je la kan. Makan free sape taknak?

Ak sampei rumah minah ni awal, Si Hanis yg mula2 ajak ak dtg rumah si Dayah ni pon x datang lagi. Sampei2 jer situ, salam2 dgn tuan rumah n tetamu yg laen, ak x perkenalkan diri langsung, tapi da ade makcik dayah ni tegor ak

"Kau ni anaknye Kak Ros ke?...cucu Cikgu Salleh?.."

"Aah...betul2."

Sempat ak makan dua round baru la Si Hanis n balaknye sampei. zzzzzzzz

***spek dayah memang tableh blah...

Borak punye borak sambil makan, aku makan sampei 5 round, Bole kate sume menu; makanan dan air kat situ sume aku da jamah at least sekali. Puas memang puas, tapi nyesal pon ade gak. Nyesal sebab skang ni kenyang teruk. zzzzzzz

Notakaki: Aku baru pasan season break cite Supernatural da abes. episod 1 season 6 da kuar plak. Mase utk layan Supernatural plak. FTW.

Burok perangai

2010-07-25T20:43:00.004+08:00

Alkisah ak turun ground floor nk sggah kedai beli bawang merah (hah?...)...betulla ak x tipu. Osmet ak nk masak tp kehabisan bawang merah. Ak x reti masak kena ar tlg die sket2 dgn care ni.

Smpai kt bawah, ade la satu keta Myvi yg dipandu oleh sorg awek yg agak cun (walopun samar2 sbb tgkap keta basah, tp ak yakin die cun). OK. Awek ni nk brenti kt foyer blok ni n nk turunkan penumpang kt situ tp xpat. Sebabnye. Ade satu teksi ni brenti park kt situ. Awek tu pon hon la soh drebar teksi yg makan di kedai makan kat situ utk alihkan teksi tu. Awek tu nk turunkan member die kt bawah bumbung foyer gak sbb ujan lebat.

Berkali2 awek tu hon, baru la brader teksi tu dtg n alihkan keta. Pastu brader tu pusing balik, g blakang keta Myvi awek ni dan hon balik. Berkali2

WTF?

Foyer berbumbung tu mmg fungsinye utk turunkan org pon. Nak2 time ujan camni xkan nk redah ujan selebat awan bocor neh.

Foyer tu bukan tempat park.

Bodoh pe drebar teksi ni. Sengal.

Drama selanjutnye xpat ak saksikan sbb ak da naek semula lif utk ke tgkat 2X.

Manusia yang dibenci

2010-07-23T00:43:00.006+08:00

Dibenci. Bile ade sorang mamat kat tempat keje ni bajet power. Memang la dia da keje bertahun2. Bile tau kite ni baru sebulan dua msk keje n buat silap, x kesah la kecik atau x sengaja, terus nak sound n kluar ayat maki2an yg pedas.

Dibenci. Bile arini aku nk mntak sign utk sign form, wat cam bagos ngada2 xnak sign. Pastu kate aku salah isi borang la, die x uruskan bende tu la, patut jumpe org laen la, itu la ini la zzzz. Pastu tanye aku "Awak da bape lama kat sini? Xpena ke isi borang ni?" Bile aku tanye die tang mane ak patut betulkan, die buat diam bodoh dgn muke palat taik cam bagus tak jawab soalan aku. Dengan maksud tersirat die "Itu tugas awak utk cari kt mane silap awak"

Pale hanjing die. Tak membimbing org baru langsung. Pukimak lancau la lu.

Well, klu die ni mmg da pk die ni bagos sgt, mmg betolla die bagos pon. Tapi dlm pale otak die je la. Dalam dunia die sendiri jer.

Kata2 aku utk org camni

Go dai pls

GTFO

Go fuck yourself, douchebag.

Mmg die manusia dibenci. Aku da tanye org keliling aku dan testimoni yg aku dapat mmg mengatakan perangai makhluk ni mmg dibenci lancau.

Sendirian

2010-07-19T23:51:00.011+08:00

Sesuai dengan tajuk, aku menulis entry ini di kala aku keseorangan dalam rumah sewa sejak pkul lebih kurang pukul 8 malam tadi.

Mane pegi osmet2 laen? Ada sorang tu x balik lagi sebab masuk keje pukul 2:30 petang jadi abes keje pukul 12 malam. atau 12:30 malam kot.

Dua orang lagi gi keluar rumah atas agenda2 tertentu yang aku xpat nk blend in. Maen Counter Strike. zzzz. Aku noob teruk CS. Da bape belas tahun da game ni pon aku x kire tapi sebab game ni punye kenan, popular lagi kot sampai skang even banyak lagi game2 genre FPS yang laen.

Aku x ikot sbb 1) aku noob CS, dan 2) aku rase ak xpat nk blend in dgn geng2 CS osmet tu. Selalunye klu osmet ade ajak keluar, aku selalu join. Yang penting acara atau event tu mesti la ak bleh blend in dan aku boleh layan.

Foodhunt?

Aku layan. Dua tiga minggu ni da banyak gak la kedai makan popular sekitar Damansara kitorang da jajah. William, Murni SS2, Murni Discovery, Bukit Lanjan, Kampung Penchala, TTDI, Misai, Medan Selera Kelana Jaya, etc etc. Kisah foodhunt ni buleh tengok lebih lanjut kat blog osmet aku kot, Khairuldin.

Window shopping?

Agaknye sebab faktor IKEA, The Curve, TESCO kat Mutiara Damansara yg jarak perjalanan tak sampai 10 minit kalau naek motor dari rumah - senang cite faktor dekat - memang selalu jalan2 kat situ. Usha baju, perabot, gadis...ops. Meja dan kerusi yang aku guna skang ni pon aku beli kt IKEA. Dem sedap gak duduk kat kerusi ni.

Nak2 tempat keje tu dekat nak mampos dengan SOGO. Memang kadang2 kalau kepala osmet aku tengah menggatal, balik keje kadang2 mesti nak usha SOGO. Dan aku pon ikot la. Memang bebetol tempting.

Pillow Talk?

Yang ni agak gg. Sebelum tido, akan ade sesi cam round table untuk cite balik peristiwa2 menarik utk ari tu sambil baring2 menunggu mata lelap. Yang x menarik pon cite gak. Agak gay la aku rase sesi ni. Tapi layan gak. zzz.

Balik ke cite asal, aku rase ni kali ke-4 kot aku ditinggal seorang kat rumah sewa ni. Tapi 3 kali yg sebelum ni waktu siang. So yg ni malam, aku rase cam meremang gak bulu roma. Nak2 mase aku tulis ni da nak dekat pukul 12 malam. Aku cume dengar bunyi lagu yg tengah aku play skang, bunyi keyboard aku tengah menaip ni dan bunyi deruman keta kat LDP ni. Mase ni la kadang2 aku terbayang balik scene2 cite seram popular yang aku da pernah tengok....zzz

Ah. Sakit perut plak.

Berak jap.

Words of despair

2010-06-25T01:10:00.002+08:00

You believe that the suffering you're doing in life has meaning, that somehow, if you endure it, you gain valuable lessons. But the truth is, sometimes you just suffer. There is no meaning.

We're just pawns, in a sick game of random chance.

Kadang-kadang...

2010-06-16T02:08:00.009+08:00

Kadang-kadang aku terpikir...orang selalu kata "semua orang berhak untuk bahagia" tapi realitinye, TAK. Ramai je orang yg hidup bahagia tp dgn memijak penderitaan orang lain. Lebih kurang la macam perumpamaan "Maju ke depan dgn memijak mayat orang lain".

Paham x ape yg aku cube cakapkan ni?

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Kadang-kadang aku terpikir...aku slalu nak buat benda yg kita nak, tp sbb nk sedapkan ati orang tua, aku buat la benda yg org tua kita nak. Orang tua aku hepi, tp last2 nnti aku sendiri yg menyiksa diri aku sbb buat benda yg x seswai dgn jiwa aku.

Contohnye aku terpakse la pilih kerja yg nampak glemer di telinga orang tua dan atuk2 nenek aku; doktor, engineer, arkitek sbb nnti boleh la derang bual dgn bangga depan sdara mara yg lain "Anak/cucu aku kerja doktor/engineer/arkitek. Anak/cucu ko kerja ape plak?"

Keje glemer? Gaji banyak? Dipandang tinggi masyarakat?

Peduli ape aku.?

Bukan kareer tu yg aku nak sbb x seswai dgn jiwa aku.

Paham x ape yg aku cube cakapkan ni?

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Kadang-kadang aku terpikir...aku sggoh jeles dgn org2 yg hidup dgn mengejar impian diorang ni. Yg kurang bertuah, x dpt sokongan keluarga n rakan2 & masalah kewangan etc etc tp tetap gak struggle utk kejar impian. Yang lgi bertuah, dpt kejar impian sbb dpt sokongan keluarga n ade resource yg cukup.

Aku? Impian cuma tinggal mimpi jer. Mimpi pon asyik lupa jer padehal lepas bangun gosok gigi je pon. Lepas gosok gigi da lupe ape mimpi tu.

Mungkin ni cume sekadar mimpi atau lagi teruk lagi, angan-angan, tapi impian aku tak pernah padam...

Mungkin satu hari nanti...

Paham x ape yg aku cube cakapkan ni?

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Kadang-kadang aku terpikir...orang slalu harap kita jd pemaaf. Tau plak ceramah pasal "Sedangkan Nabi Muhammad S.A.W. pon maafkan umat...bla bla bla". Tapi cukup ke sekadar kata2 maaf je dr mulut? Takde ganti rugi laen yg berpatutan dgn kerugian yg orang teraniaya tu alami? Kalau la semua benda bole setel dgn ucapan minta maaf yg kononnye ikhlas disertai dgn air mata "Aku betul2 mnta maaf ni...etc etc" mesti da lama da dunia ni aman.

Jgn mandai2 nk kate org busuk ati psl bkn jenis pemaaf smpai bertahun2 smpan dlm ati kalau ko tu jenis yg cume pandai mntak maap tp gantirugi tak ade. Wadeshit. Mnta maaf gune air liur je pon. Mane cukup????

Paham x ape yg aku cube cakapkan ni?

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Paham ke tak, lantak korang la. Aku pon x harap korang paham. Kalau paham, baguslah.

Cuti & Bosan

2010-05-27T16:46:00.004+08:00

Hari ni ak off day. Esok pon off day gak. Juga esok ade la Hari Wesak. Tp ak off day esok bukan sbb Wesak tu, tp mmg shift mggu ni camtu. Tp act klu keje pon bagus gak. Dpt duit lebih. zzz.

Bile bosan, ak blogwalking. Tiap2 ari ak tgk dashboard ak n tgk update dr blogs yg ak da follow. Orang klu da bosan, benda2 jauh panggang dr api pon dibuatnye. Contohnye kawan aku dlu bosan, trus wat blog. Padehal dgn karekter beliau tu wat blog, kompem org akan kate camni;

"Wadeshit? Mamat ni pon ade blog. Tak sangka aku."

Same la jugak ade sorg kawan aku tu. Sampai skang nganggur xde keje smpai terciptalah sebuah blog beliau. Alang2 da tulis camni buleh la ak promote skali.

Lucky Twenty Two by Saleh Hamdi

Aku ucapkan tahniah la sbb mamat ni ade gak blog akhirnye. Cume keje je xpat lg. Gua wish gak mamat ni dpt keje cepat. Klu tak tiap2 ari pm ak kt gtalk sbb nk ajak aku maen DoTA. Aku takbleh ade org ajak maen DoTA ni. Klu tgh berak pon aku akan terima pelawaan tu. Cume mamat ni dgn Wimax + laptop yg agak tukun ni membolehkan beliau dinobatkan sbagai DC King yg bru di kalangan ahli clan. zzzz

OMG WTF?

2010-05-16T15:28:00.004+08:00

Tadi aku nyaris2 eksiden. Walhal ride moto slow2 je pon keliling kampung2.

Tengah ak syok pulas minyak lalu kt Jalan Genting, Kampung Rantau Panjang, Klang (sile google klu x tau katne), tetibe aku nampak la kelibat sebijik keta Kancil skolah memandu dan sebijik moto dr arah bertentangan.

Pastu aku nampak Kancil tu amek side kanan (atau side kiri aku) macam cube nk potong moto tu.

Aku bertambah pelik lagi bile nampak Kancil tu stay je kt side kanan die (side kiri aku) sedangkan aku da makin menghampiri die.

Aku igtkan bile aku da dekat, dia nk masuk blik side kiri die (side kanan aku).

pastu aku ZOMGWTF bile Kancil tu terus je stay kt lane aku. Dah nk msuk point blank range aku ni.

Refleks survival aku pon trus la wat zig-zag maneuver utk elakkan Kancil noob ni.

Sebaek dpt elak. Klu bertembung kompem ak melambung dan parah sb x pakai helmet.

Dem. siyes aku emo dgn driver Kancil noob tu. aku rase budak tgh blajar memandu tu. X silap aku laki plak tu yg tgh bawak. Dem noob.

Sebaek aku x noob kne langgar.

Suwey?

2010-04-26T08:45:00.005+08:00

Pagi ni bangun pkol 6 pagi. Gosok slack n kemeja. Mandi. Smayg. Pakai bju n kasut kulit. Panas enjin keta n mgkin tepat kol 6:300 pg, ak gerak g stesen KTM Klang.

Msuk entrance parking, bayar RM3 n park keta.

Tpi sebenanye dr rumah td da rase x sedap ati. Cam ade bende yg x kena.

Ak bukak beg sandang, tengok balik schedule trening mggu ni.

zzzzzzzzzzz

26 April 10 hingga 30 April 10 - 4:30pm hingga 1:30 am

Agak terbeliak mata ak di situ.

Balik rumah balik la camni. Mase nk kuar dr tmpat parking tu, ak tanye jaga parking tu klu tiket parking ak bleh pakai lg utk petang ni walaupun tiket tu valid utk per entry jer.

Myb sbb ak da jd regular customer sejak lebih sbulan yg lepas, jaga tu slamber je kate

"Takde hal punye, bang. Boleh saja"

Lega. At least xyah bayar lg duit parking petang ni.

Agak suwey pagi ni?

Mungkin x. Sbb klu x kerna igt mggu ni shift pg, ak xkan bolenye bgn seawal pg kol 6. Dulu2 pon bgn kol 10-11 pg bile shift petang. Mentang2 la shift petg.

Da blik rumah, nk tdo blik xde mood. Peluang ni x ak sia2kan utk ak berjogging wat pertame kalinye dalam tempoh lebih 10 bulan yg lepas. Fyi, sem last ak kt UTP, ak x jejak kaki langsung kt trek joging UTP kt tepi tasek tu walhal seblum tu ak mmg regular kt situ.

1st time jogging kt Tanjung Harapan, Klang pg2 camni. Tp udara x brape nk segar sbb ak asek terhidu bau asap kapal2 yg lalu kt situ.

Myb sbb nk dekat setaun x jogging, jogging kli ni ak terase suku pitam. Perasaan yg sebijik mase ak g trening rumah sukan wat 1st time mase Form 1 dlu. Rase nk muntah pon ade.

Esok. Mampukah ak bgn awal pg lg cam arini stelah kuketahui minggu ni shift petang?

Entah.

Suwey yg (ter)amat

2010-04-17T03:50:00.010+08:00

Minggu ni shift malam kt Menara TM. Masuk pukul 430 petang n balik pkul 1030 mlm.

Macam biase gak, ak drive g stesen KTM Klang smpai sane cantek pkul 310 petang. Sempat lg untuk ak beli tiket n nek tren ke arah KL Sentral pkul 320 petang.

Suwey. Bile ak tgk byk org tgh beratur nk beli tiket kt kaunter. Byk plak budak skola. Budak skola asrama yg nk balik rumah bile weekend menjelma.

Ak tgk mesin jual tiket cume ade dua tige org je beratur so ak gi la beratur skali dgn harapan ak dpt beli tiket cepat sket.

Suwey. Bile da tggal sorang akak n amoi depan aku, akak tu plak noob menggunakan mesin tiket tu. Masuk duit kertas singgit, 5,6 kali mesin tu muntahkan balik duit die.

Suwey. Bile akak tu noob xtau bile pki mesin tu, kena msukkan duit syiling utk genapkan bayaran tiket. Klu harga tiket i.e. RM3.20, takbleh msk bodo je duit RM1 4 keping, tpi kena mskkan duit RM1 tiga keping + 20 sen (syiling).

Smpaikan amoi tu tegur akak tu xbleh msk duit kertas lg, kena pakai syiling.

"Saya xde duit syiling la" kate akak tu.

Aku : Pfttttttttttttttttttt~~!!!! (dlm hati)

Pastu amoi tu tolong msukkan duit syiling (amoi tu punye syiling).

Suwey. Bile masukkan duit 10 sen, mesin tu muntahkan balik dua tiga kali.

Bangang btol.

Maka aku dengan emonyer amek duit 20 sen dlm dompet ak n masukkan kt mesin tu tanpa byk bicare.

Sekonyong2 akak tu setel beli tiket, tren pkul 320 ptg pon tibe. Tapi ak x beli tiket lg neh. Terpakse la biarkan tren tu berlalu pergi.

Suwey.

Bile ak terpakse tggu lg stengah jam utk tren seterusnye pkul 350 petang camtu. Ak yg x patut lambat telah dilambatkan oleh makhluk2 noob yg lambat lg melambatkan orang laen.

Ok. x de la suwey sgt sbb ak dapat duduk sepanjang perjalanan selame 40 minit.

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Macam biase, malam ni balik pukul 1030 malam. Biasenye kalau shift siang, ak amek bas T633 kt stesen lrt Kerinchi pastu turun kt stesen Komuter KTM Pantai Dalam utk amek nek komuter balik ke Klang.

Tapi sbb shift malam, nak harapkan bas tu, mmg lambat la nak dekat kol 1130 mlm bru nk gerak dr stesen lrt Kerinchi sedangkan tren last komuter akan smpai kt stesen Angkasapuri n Pantai Dalam dlm pkul 1115/1120 camtu.

Ak memilih utk jalan kaki. Ak rase distance tu xde la jauh sgt. Jalan kaki 10 minit smpai sb ak jalan laju walaupun kaki ak xbrape nak panjang. zzz.

Sesampai kt stesen Angkasapuri, ak nek jejantas n terus ke side menunggu tren komuter ke arah Klang.

Suwey sggoh. Bile mesin jual tiket tu out of service. Terpakse ak nek balik jejantas utk beli tiket dr mesin kt side menunggu tren ke arah KL Sentral/Sentul.

Tgh membeli tiket, tren ke arah Klang da sampai plak. Tak sempat la ak nak nek sbb ak bru nk msukkan duit kt mesin tu.

Lepas beli tiket, ak g blik side menunggu tren ke arah Klang. Tengok2 mesin kt side tu da OK balik.

WTF?????????????

Ak trase sggoh suwey sbb kebodohan mesin tu da menyebabkan ak terpakse biarkan tren yg ak sepatutnye sempat naik berlalu pergi macam rumput ditiup angin, pastu ak terpakse plak tggu 30 minit lg utk nek tren yg seterusnye. Tren last plak tu.

Bodo punye mesin. Bangang. Ak terase diri ak diperbodohkan, dipermainkan oleh mesin tak bernyawa ni.

Bangang. Suwey yg (ter)amat.

Graduation

2009-12-13T23:26:00.005+08:00

Seems this post is a bit late. My dear colleagues have already posted theirs a week or two weeks ago. They finished theirs early. While I'm stuck here at the hot and sunny land of once popular mining site of Tronoh - to finish what I'm supposed to do so that I'm able to graduate - finishing project report. zzz. I probably have wasted one or two weeks of my lifespan here to do the hardbound report. Never thought that hardbounding the report is not easy as others might think. Too lazy to tell the details here. I'd better not recall those memories again. What's important is my business here is DONE.

I don't know why, humans 's minds are always taken up by this thing - reminiscence. They always look back, remembering the old days and some wish for the old days could repeat again so that they could take another path, make other choices and to undo their mistakes. But that's only a big IF. Time will not flow backwards and that means we have to move forwards - no matter how much regrets we have for our wrongdoings in the past.

This five years might seem short to me - but very long for others. Sometimes I wished I was not here. I wished to be studying somewhere else better. But good or bad a place is, it always depend on us - how we feel about it. But I know, if I were to be studying somewhere else, I'd would also wish to be at another place. Lust will never get satisfied. My college's good. But there's some things need to be improved. But they - the managements - never improved it, or they just only improved recently. So slow to take action. And that is why sometimes I hate my college.

Like it or not, this is the place where I studied for five years to get my degree. The place where I met many people that influenced me to be who I am now.

There it goes. Even I myself is reminiscing the past. I always hate to look back because that is the time I will have regrets for the things happened in the past - questioned myself things such as "I shouldn't have done that", "Wish I could undo those mistakes" etc etc.

The past is the past. I will not look back but I will learn from the past mistakes.

I won't be stupid enough to not learn from past mistakes and make same mistakes over and over again.

Happy graduation to myself and my friends.

It can be anyone

2009-12-03T10:44:00.004+08:00

Just for the last holiday (Hari Raya Haji holiday), I got two friends of mine who involved in accidents. And both of them are very close to me. One is my housemate, Wafiy and the other is Saa, my groupmate for the EIS project. Wafiy had his during his way to go home last Thursday, if I'm not mistaken. Saa, had hers at Lembah Beringin highway. I dare not to post the pictures here, as those are the courtesy of theirs. Plus, we can find lots of scarier accidents scenes available in the internets.

Seeing them, I tried to see myself in their situation. For the last five years I'm driving, never had once I got into an accident myself. Except for the bike. I had twice with the same bike. Now that the bike is stolen, I won't recall those memories again.

Enough with the bike. It has been numerous time I nearly involved in accidents, but I didn't. They were like barely avoided, just 8-inch away and something like day. Seems as if I have somebody watching over me, huh? Silent guardian. But some of my friends, they are not so lucky.

Edi had his while driving his sister's Nissan Latio.

Bani had his while driving mine, although it was a minor one.

Adi has his by hitting a policeman during night before Eid.

Gori had his due to his sleepiness and got his car and himself into the highway drain.

Mok had his during his way to home on 2nd last night of Ramadhan. This one's pretty bad. His car skidded and spinned like 2,3 times before stopped. Luckily no one dies.

Edited: Not his car that got spinned, but it was the truck that he hit.

Mine?

Guess it's not my turn yet. But I'll pray for that it won't happen to me. But if it can't be avoided, please don't let it to be a fatal one.

Exia

2009-11-10T01:52:00.006+08:00

My first Gundam - Gundam Exia. Some already know that I am obsessed with Gundam 00. Just Gundam 00. Took me about 6 months to wait from the end of the series until this Exia MG come out on sale.

Next: Gundam 00 PG???

Exam draws near...

2009-11-05T23:16:00.005+08:00

14 November 2009, Saturday
Engineers in Society
9 am -12 pm

18 November 2009, Wednesday
Facilities Engineering, Transport & Storage
9 am - 12 pm

19 November 2009 Thursday
Mandarin
2:30 pm - 5:30 pm

25 November 2009
Drilling & Production Technology
2:30 pm - 5:30 pm

SI Petronas - done

2009-10-29T22:03:00.013+08:00

And I just had my Structured Interview (SI) with PETRONAS this evening.

I came as early as 1:30 pm - one hour earlier than my slot at 2:30 pm because I was told in the briefing the day before that time will be used for my case study - one of the module in this SI. I came at 1:30 pm, only to find that Haziq which his turn is before mine - even had not done his interview yet. He told me that the person before him - Kelvin just entered the interview room.

zzz.

So those PETRONAS HR guys - Izzatul and Nabil - told me that I could wait there with all the foods and drinks - or go back to my room and come back at about 3:15 pm.

So I went back to my room - checking my Facebook feeds, new emails and had a game of DoTA wtf mode. LOL.

And I came back to the lounge room of the interview area at 3:30 pm, only to find that Haziq is still in midway of his interview session.

Maybe around 4 pm only I was given a case study and an empty room to study the case. Occasionally Izzatul, the HR person came to check on me - telling me that "Be ready. You'll be interviewed soon"

10 minutes later, she came again and told me that I could relax, because the interviewers wanted to have some snacks and teas. zzz.

I took my time to urinate - the room was so damn cold.

Luckily to calm myself, I got techniques of my own. Occasionally I got nervous - I know that when I could hear my own heart beating and the blood pumping throughout my veins. Of course I was quite nervous because I had not been in interview for years - last time was during the Educamp eh? That was five years ago, back in December 2004.

During the interview, of course lah the interviewer asked damn a lot of questions. I also talked a lot. Dunno remember much what did I talk. But surely I didn't realize the time passed by so fast.

As I came to the end of the session, I looked through the window and saw the gloomy sky - only then I realized that it was nearly maghrib time. zzz.

Note: This SI surely take a lot of time. I think today they only interviewed maybe 5 people including myself but it took a whole day. zzz

Saturday's Test - Part 2

2009-10-26T00:12:00.009+08:00

My Mandarin lecturer always do test on Saturday. zzz. Last Saturday, I had Mandarin oral session which was done in pair. I paired with my housemate, Saleh.

The script? Wrote it on Thursday night eventhough he advised us to submit it on Wednesday's class so that he can revised it first. But unfortunately, Saleh and I missed that class, unintentionally. zzz.

Here's the script. Very easy and straightforward. zzz

(Use Google Translate if you don't understand it.)

I warned you. The translated one (using Google Translate), you might find it funny - shit it IS funny. haha LOLZ.

在食堂

怀十：早安，你好。

沙乐：早安，你好。

怀十：你叫什么名字？

沙乐：我叫沙乐，你呢?

怀十 : 我叫怀十。

沙乐：你从那里来?

怀十：我从雪兰莪来。你呢？

沙乐：我从马六甲来。

怀十：你家里有几个人？

沙乐：我家里有六个人。我爸爸，

妈妈，两个哥哥，一个弟弟和我。你

呢?

怀十：我家里有九个人。我爸爸，

妈妈，一个姐姐，五个弟弟和我。我没

有哥哥也没有妹妹。

你做什么工作？

沙乐：我是工程师。我在工厂工作。这

工厂很忙。你呢？

怀十：我是医生。我在医院工作。

沙乐：今天你忙吗？

怀十 ` ：不是。沙乐，吃饱了吗？

沙乐：还没有呢。你呢？

怀十：我已经吃了。我有一些工作要做。

再见。

沙乐：再见。

月亮代表我的心

2009-10-21T01:50:00.012+08:00

月亮代表我的心 (Yuè Liang Dài Biǎo Wǒ De Xīn)

The Moon Represents My Heart
by Teresa Teng

你问我爱你有多深,
nǐ wèn wǒ ài nǐ yǒu duō shēn
Kau tanya ku cinta mu sedalam mana

我爱你有几分？
wǒ ài nǐ yǒu jǐ fēn
Ku cintaimu setakat mana

我的情也真,
wǒ de qíng yě zhēn
Perasaanku juga ikhlas, cintaku juga ikhlas

月亮代表我的心。
yuè liang dài biǎo wǒ de xīn
Bulan mewakili hatiku

你问我爱你有多深,
nǐ wèn wǒ ài nǐ yǒu duō shēn
Kau tanya ku cinta mu sedalam mana

我爱你有几分?
wǒ ài nǐ yǒu jǐ fēn
Ku cintaimu sedalam mana

我的情不移, 我的爱不变,
wǒ de qíng bù yí, wǒ de ài bú biàn
Perasaanku takkan beralih, cintaku takkan berubah

月亮代表我的心。
yuè liang dài biǎo wǒ de xīn
Bulan mewakili hatiku

---------------------------

轻轻的一个吻，
qīng qīng de yī gè wěn
Sentuhan ringan satu ciuman

已经打动我的心，
yǐ jīng dǎ dòng wǒ de xīn
Sudah memikat hatiku

深深的一段情，
shēn shēn de yī duàn qíng
Perasaan yang sungguh dalam

教我思念到如今。
jiào wǒ sī niàn dào rú jīn
Menyebabkan ku rindu sehingga kini

你问我爱你有多深，
nǐ wèn wǒ ài nǐ yǒu duō shēn
Kau tanya ku cinta mu sedalam mana

我爱你有几分？
wǒ ài nǐ yǒu jǐ fēn
Ku cintaimu setakat mana

你去想一想，
nǐ qù xiǎng yī xiǎng
Kau pergi berfikir sejenak

你去看一看，
nǐ qù kàn yī kàn
Kau pergi melihat sekejap

月亮代表我的心。
yuè liang dài biǎo wǒ de xīn
Bulan mewakili hatiku

Saturday's Test

2009-10-10T01:18:00.006+08:00

我的家庭

我叫怀士，我今年 22 岁。我从雪兰莪来。我的家庭有九个人。他门是爸爸，妈妈，姐姐， 5 弟弟和我。我没有哥哥和妹妹。我很爱我的家人。

我的爸爸是一经理，他在公司工作。我的妈妈是教师，她在中学教书。她很爱我门。我的姐姐是护士，她在医院工作。她每天都很忙。我的弟弟在大学和中学上课。我现在在国油大学念书。

我的家庭真快乐。

If you don't understand what did I write above, just copy the whole paragraph and use Google Translate to translate it. It's Mandarin.

Note that if you use Google Translate, the translation is a bit...hmmm...funny? Yeah that's what I think...after reading the translated one using Google Translate. zzzzzzz

That essay is just an exercise for tomorrow's test. Even Saturday got test. zzzzzzzzzz

For tomorrow's test, I have to write an essay. This test will be the third test just for this course. So many tests. Before there were listening test and simple writing test. But I scored full marks for both test. I'm hoping to get full marks again. If not, high marks. LOL

Day 27: I'm home

2009-09-18T14:49:00.008+08:00

At 2:52 am of 18 September 2009, I arrive safely at home.

Together with my fellow UTP-mate, Wanted, we started our journey to home at about 9:40 pm. We didn't use the highway as usual. Instead we went through the Sri Iskandar-Kampung Gajah-Teluk Intan-Sabak Bernam-Sungai Besar-Klang path.

It was quite a journey. The rain that poured down since evening didn't stop when we started our journey. Instead, it became heavier at certain part of the roads. It got creepier when we passed through the dark, countryside area and I couldn't stop thinking about supernatural phenomena and entities that might pop out in front of my very eyes, even though we are still in the month of Ramadhan. Lulz...

But seriously, the legend of "Red Kebaya" entity that is always lurking around northen coast of Malaysia that has caused so many deathly accidents, you should never underestimate it. Ask the locals. They know better.

And I hit and ran a snake in the middle of the journey. Sorry Mr. Snake. May you rest in peace.

After we arrived at Klang area, I exhaled deeply, but grateful that we ha a safe journey. So I sent Wanted to his home at Bukit Tinggi before I went to my home in Klang.

p/s: And I just heard that some of my UTP-mate had an accident somewhere in Tangkak when they were driving back to Johor Bahru last night. Pity them. But luckily no one sustained serious injury. But the car did. Be strong.

Day 24: Hope

2009-09-15T19:02:00.004+08:00

24th day of Ramadhan. Ramadhan will end in less than a a week from now and after that, Eid. I don't have much hope and wishes for the upcoming Eid. Sometimes when we put too much hope and we don't get what we want, the pain is very unbearable. So lesson learnt is, don't put too much hope. You want fall too hard. Pretty simple.

I'm not asking too much. Being able to celebrate Eid with my family and friends is just enough. I still remember how I celebrated Eid in the middle of South China Sea last year, on a barge named E.L - doing (Confidential information)

Lulz.

This year's Eid, I want to enjoy it as much as possible.

Happy Eid.

And please forgive my mistakes.

Day 7: Part 2

2009-08-29T16:14:00.010+08:00

Today I skipped tarawikh prayer to watch this one show - Nur Kasih - TV3 at 9 pm. lulz.

I like it since the first time I watched it because the acting and storyline are very solid. Too bad I didn't watch it since episode 1. Latest episode is 14. Lulz. Too bad also that the TV-rip version from jiwang is quite low quality - the noise is barely as loud as the voices.

If this show comes out in DVD, most probably I'll buy it. Perhaps Blu-ray?

Day 7

2009-08-28T11:31:00.007+08:00

Day 7 of Ramadhan. Also the seventh day of me suffering from tootache.

Seven nights of soundless sleep.

With two fingers, I pressed my cheek on the hurt part most of the time, hoping that it will relieve the pain, but it is not. Instead, the pain is getting more unbearable.

Sampai nak berak pun tak aman.

Damn la...sampai bila ni?

Day 1

2009-08-22T19:48:00.004+08:00

Just finished my breakfasting. At last I can fill my stomach with food. Quite a flat day.

I tried to limit my movement and activities to minimum in order to conserve my energy until sunset. I didn't eat anything for sahur because I overslept.

Ahhh. Now that I can eat, I feel so lega~

Nanchatte Renai

2009-08-17T01:57:00.005+08:00

Latest Morning Musume single is released.

Nanchatte Renai (なんちゃって恋愛)

by Morning Musume

Romaji lyric:

Akubi ga hitotsu dechau hodo tsumaranai koto ni natta na
Nanpa toka shinai de kureru kana shirakechau
Shibaraku ha genki na kyara de nantonaku ikitekita kedo
Ki ga tsukeba iroke mo detekiteru mitai

Aa nande nandarou watashi yuugata ni naru tabi
Nakitai kimochi ni naru aa

Oh Baby yume ha zenbu shinken dakara
Otona ni naru shouken wo

Oshiete hoshii

Dakedo nandaka mendoukusai sono uchi
Terebi wo kaika enai to

Ikenai ne

Nanchatte renai wo shita koto de sabishiku naru dake
Sore nanoni nukumori wo kanjitaku naru
Nanchatte ii yatsu wo enjite mo munashikunaru dake
Sore nanoni tekitou ni aisou warai

Hanbaagaa kajiri nagara machiyuku hito wo nagameteta
Hontou ni waratteru ko nante iru no kana
Heddohon kara nagareteru oki ni no kyoku kurikaeshi
Kono kashi ha watashi no koto utatteru

Aa nande nandarou watashi sunao ni amaerarenai
Okaasan ni denwa shitai Aa

Oh Baby ato ha nani suru no? watashi
Nani wo motometeru no? Ah yeah

Ai ga tarinai

Dakedo imi naku gonetarishinai datte
Sonna no mottainai, You know?

Aishitai

Nanchatte renai wo kurikaesu onna no ko no kimochi
Dare ni demo wakacchau wa onna no ko nara
Nanchatte iroiro to iu keredo kagayakitai dake
Watashi ni mo nareru kashira honmono ni

Nanchatte renai wo shitai koto sabishiku naru dake
Sore nanoni nukumori wo kanjitaku naru
Nanchatte ii yatsu wo enjiru mo munashikunaru dake
Sore nanoni tekitou ni aisou warai

Nanchatte renai wo kurikaesu onna no ko no kimochi
Dare ni demo wakacchau wa onna no ko nara
Nanchatte iroiro to iu keredo kagayakitai dake
Watashi ni mo nareru kashira honmono ni

from http://www.quizilla.com/lyrics/11860942/nanchatte-renai

Hannah vs. Miley

2009-08-13T02:32:00.009+08:00

Hannah Montana: The Movie [2009]

http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1114677/

I came across this movie last night. I copied it from a friend of mine and watched it straight away.

It must've become a habit that after watching movies, I can come up with several lessons learnt from those movies. In this movie, you can conclude that as you're moving forward, you'll unconsciously changing yourselves. And as we changing, we always can't escape from making mistakes and hurting others around us.

But if you don't want to hurt others and want to stay what you are, then how are you going to change for the better? It's like living under the rocks. If you don't want to change, you'll be left by the others.

You decide it. Life is about choices.

That's not all. There's a bunch of lessons learnt but I prefer not to write a lengthy post here.

After done watching, I searched for Hannah Montana or Miley Cyrus songs. Lucky me. The songs are quite catchy and melancholic. No wonder since some is composed by Taylor Swift. She even appeared in the movie. Looks like those songs will stay in my playlist for the upcoming couple of weeks.

Quite a sweet movie.

Hate Book: Chapter 4

2009-07-28T22:11:00.008+08:00

Chapter 4

I hate when someone of my housemate takes the water jug from the fridge and fill the water into his bottle and left the jug empty without refilling it.

Is it so hard to refill that small jug?

I hate to sleep in an air-conditioned room. I'll shiver throughout my entire sleep and will be caught by cold the next day, for sure.

I hate when I'm lazying around at home during semester break, I'm actually gaining weight. I envy those who ate as much as their lust want, but maintain their ideal weight and shape. Scientific studies say that those people might have higher metabolic rate.

This is genetically unfair...

I hate to see the reflection of myself in the mirror for too long. I feel like the reflection is becoming alive and it wants to talk to me. To tell me something. Am I hallucinating?

I hate people who plans their journey/trip in front of the goddamn ticket counter. Why don't they plan the trip beforehand? These people sure don't have Plan B. Just wasting time in front of the counter while letting others wasting precious time queing up, waiting for these idiots to finish up.

What a douche...

-End of Chapter 4-

of Durian journey

2009-07-27T01:25:00.015+08:00

Last Saturday, I went to Bukit Gantang, Taiping with my colleagues for one purpose - eat durians - in conjunction with The Great Durian Festival. This time I felt like spamming pictures. No mood to write.

Credits to Shariffuddin Sahedan for the pictures.

At rendezvous point - in front of Block B - before we rolled out.

At the scene of our interest.

Durians that became our victims...

Throwing durians mid-air - noticed that someone even blew a durian mid-air LOL

An infamous cemetry somewhere in Taiping...I forgot the history of this place.

After swimming at jungle waterfall behind MRSM Taiping.

Closing event of the trip - had mee udang (prawn mee) at Gerai Mee Udang Mak Teh in Kuala Sepetang.

Ucapkanlah

2009-07-26T12:06:00.016+08:00

Ucapkanlah

oleh Yusry & Erra Fazira

Kadangkala aku rasa ingin luahkan segalanya

Rahsia yang tersimpan di dada sekian lama

Namun kelu terus membisu menatap wajahmu

Daku malu tapi tak mahu kehilanganmu

( 1 )

Ucapkanlah cinta

Ucapkan ku saja yang kau perlu setiap waktu

Sepanjang hayatmu

Ucapkan kau rindu

Daku yang kau mahu

Yang kau cari telah kau temui

Ku tidak tertahan lagi untuk mengaku ku cintamu

( 2 )

Dan kadangkala kita hanya sedar keindahannya

Apabila ia sudah tiada di depan mata

Tidak rela kulepaskan satu-satunya insan

Yang berikan ku segala makna kehidupan

( ulang 1 dan 2 )

Andai daku kau terima lebih dari kawan biasa

Daku kan setia tak kubenarkan kau berairmata

Andai kau terima cintaku

Daku kan belaikan tanganmu

Di penghujung waktu kau dan aku di dunia

(ulang 1)

=================

English translation

=================

Say it

by Yusry & Erra Fazira

Sometimes I feel like telling you everything

The secrets that I've kept for so long

But I couldn't speak when I looked at your face

I hesitated, but I don't want to lose you

( 1 )

Please say "love"

Please say that I am the only one that you need every moment

For your entire life

Please say "I misses you"

That I am the person that you desire

The person you've been searching for has been found

I couldn't resist anymore to admit that I love you

( 2 )

And sometimes we only realize the beauty of something

When they have gone from our sight

I will never let go the only person

Who has given me all flavours of life

( repeat 1 and 2 )

If we could be more than just friends

I would never let you drop your tears

If you had responded to my love

I would've been able to hold your hands

At the end of time, there are only you and me in this world

( repeat 1 )

*This is self translated. Interpretations may be inaccurate. You have been warned. Any constructive comment or suggestion is most welcomed.

I'm here

2009-07-22T15:59:00.020+08:00

So here I am. Back to my college for my final semester here before completing my degree program.

Time sure flies fast without me realizing it. Feels like yesterday when I was registering myself as freshies in UTP but today, I'm a final semester student.

Crap. I'm getting nostalgic here. Cut it out, please.

Reality is always harsh. And life itself is always cruel. Sometimes when you put your efforts to achieve something so-called dreams, or whatever, but turns out you are always defeated by the thing called fate, or destiny. You stray from your path that you should be going.

Sometimes I loose faith on the believe that if you work hard, you'll earn it. Most of the times I was defeated by fate. My dreams were crushed and of course, I didn't get what I've always wanted. And my life is not the way I want it to be.

Not because I'm weak. I did give my my best shot. However, fate didn't always choose me to be on the winning side. Perhaps, goddess of luck also never smiled again upon me.

Haha...

Hahahaha...

Hahahahahahahaha...

Well, the thing called fate...

Forget it. I'll keep on having dreams. Dreams give me passion and strength. With dreams, at least I have reasons to live for.

This semester I'll be taking Mandarin course. I've attended Malay, English, Arabic and Japanese classes before. Someone asked me why don't I take the Arabic course which is much easier for me to score?

Well...I've been learning Arabic since I was in kindergarden. And continued learning it during primary school for 6 years. And continued learning it again during my secondary school.

And to learn Arabic again in college studies?...so boring to face the same stuffs all over again...

But if there were Japanese course offered by my college, I'll attend the class for sure. Too bad there is not.

Someone told me that Mandarin course is difficult to score, the writings were so much complicated, the language is hard to learn blah blah blah.

All those rants, I don't give much shit. Because my life is already pretty fucked up. I've gone through enough shits. If it's going to be any worse, I'm mentally prepared for it.

Bring it on!

Where am I?

2009-07-11T07:57:00.004+08:00

I woke up this morning and surprisingly, I found myself inside of an unknown room. Definitely not my room. Strange. Am I supposed to be at home? Why everything seems so alien to me? Where the hell am I?

...

I looked at the desk and chair in front of me. I looked at the bedsheet. I looked at every corner of the room.

...

Wait. I know where I am. I'm inside my room in UTP dormitry...

How I ended getting myself here?

Urghh....my head hurts...

I close my eyes, and try to remember what actually happened...

...

Now I remember. Yesterday evening I actually drove back to UTP from my home. Before leaving, I remember I shook hands with my parents and my youngest brother. I left home around 6:30 pm.

My ride here to UTP was not so smooth. I got trapped in a traffic jam around Subang and Damansara intersection for quite a while. There was an accident, causing the situation to be worse but luckily, no one was found dead.

I couldn't make myself calm during my ride. Because for the past several days, I had been surfing at this particular website, where it shows many brutal pictures of dead people that die in accidents, killed or suicide. Most pictures are very, very disgusting. I couldn't get those scary images out of my head and made me extremely cautious driving my car. Besides, highway seems pretty much scarier at night.

I exhaled in relief when I saw exit sign to Gopeng. At last I could relax. Later I was very hungry so I had my diner at nearby mapley. Alone.

Around 9:18 pm, I arrived safely at UTP.

....

Now that explains it. Amnesia. That's why I forgot. But now everything is crystal clear.

...

Actually, I can just write a simple entry with few sentences like "I'm back at UTP. I'm going to do my best for this semester" bla bla but somehow, I want to make it like an epic. Yes, an epic. Because to my conscience, writing is...quite fun, sometimes.

I also wrote this entry for the lulz.

Why?

Because this entry was writen last night before I fell asleep. Most of the details are just fictions that I had in mind while writing it. And I scheduled it to be published at 7:57 am. Right now, I am probably still sleeping soundly on my bed.

Lulz.

-The end-

Hate Book: Chapter 3

2009-07-10T01:41:00.017+08:00

Chapter 3

I hate people who capitalize certain letters they type. Sometimes they capitalize the consonants, sometimes the vocals. Sometimes they just capitalize any letter they feel like to. I could't see any damn pattern here in this case. Example:

mOst Of AlL, i HaTe ThIs

Oh wait a minute, I can see the pattern there. They capitalize every two letters - but still, it is still annoying, pain in the ass and as if you're telling people that you type like that because you're a fucking retarded cripple. End of story.

I hate people who spam Friendster bulletins with bunchs of unimportant craps like "I'm online again~!!!", "I'm feeling damn sleepy". What a bunch of useless crap. For the love of people, Friendster bulletin is not your personal blog or Twitter. Good Lord.

I hate camwhores. Especially those who like to camwhore while making their not-so-cute-faces. Most people don't have a pleasant-looking faces, but they still want to camwhore anyway, because most of their friends, and most importantly, many other people do it. Sometimes it's ok if you are cute, pretty, beautiful or hot but if your face is just average or worse, then shame on you. You just made yourself a laughing stock in the internet.

And why in the hell people camwhore even in the toilets? In front of the fucking toilet mirrors? Isn't there a lot of other better places than toilets? Why in the fucking toilets? What a bunch of sick whores...

I hate male camwhores. I REALLY, REALLY FUCKING HATE 'EM - and I mean it. From what I've seen so far, their camwhoring styles are pretty much similar to the female ones. Maybe they are inspired by the females? Whatever. Nice one, assholes. Because I can't look at those pictures too long. I feel like my eyeballs gonna pop out. These sick fags really disgust me to the whole new level...totally abomination of mankind...

I hate camwhores who spam their camwhored style pictures at their Facebook, Friendster profiles and other social-networking websites. Some even have a couple of albums, full of their camwhored pictures. What a total bunch of CRAP. It's just the same faces but different expressions and angles. So what's the point of doing that? Expressing yourselves? If you're trying to get some attention, well thank's a lot. Because I ain't fucking interested. Not even a bit or fractions of second. Some pictures just focus at the cleavage and boobs. Some even go naked. Wow you're so fucking cheap, you sick, fucking bitches...

-End of Chapter 3-

wtfwiththeseshits?

2009-07-05T15:09:00.038+08:00

I went through a pile of shits lately. These shits come to me like Narnia chronicles. One comes after another, and its cycle continues...like electronic components on the moving tray in the factories...

So wtfwiththeseshits?...

First, it was around May when my monitor suddenly went kaput...wthell...nevermind it's a Samsung product and the 3 years warranty still intact...since I got spare monitor, i was thinking of sending it to the Samsung service center someday...

Second, it was around last week when something was definitely wrong with my computer. It suddenly turned off without any warning, for several times. After then, no display...i could only see the Black Screen of Despair...wthell man...

Not to mention the third, my car's radio antenna malfunctioned. Now, no radio transmission in my cars and I can only listen to the CDs..same set of songs, over and over...boring like hell...

Back to the computer. After giving up with my own diagnose on the computer, I sent the computer to my uncle who runs his own computer shop. From my diagnose, I knew that the hard disk, power supply unit, RAM, display card are in good condition. So probably, either the mainboard or the processor must be the source of failure. After two days, my uncle sent it back to me. He said that probably the mainboard went kaput and advised me to send it for repair. Besides that, he also lent me his unused computer to me to be used while waiting for the replacement. Thanks uncle. That's very kind of you.

Before he transfered my hard disk to his unused computer, I was thinking of asking him to install Windows 7 in my hard disk's unused partition. But perhaps I was asking him too much...so I just let him installed Vista.

Ok. There are two OSs in my hard disk. XP and Vista. But when I got the PC, the XP was no longer bootable...the infamous Blue Screen of Death kept appearing...wtf...that's the fourth shit...

Actually, I prefer XP rather than Vista. But since XP is no longer bootable. I had to use Vista. No other choices. So I installed necessary softwares like Microsoft Office and Nero Burner on the Vista. After I install Alcohol 120%, my PC went black screen and KA-POOSH!! It just turned off. I restarted the PC, but WTH? My Vista became non-bootable?...and same like my XP, the infamous Blue Screen of Death appeared again. Wtf...not this shit again...oh that's the fifth shit...

For the sake of my precious files, I took off the hard disk and put it to my brother's PC, then I backed up those files.

After that, I installed Windows 7 pre-release edition. Surprisingly, unlike last times, no problems occured during installation using my uncle's PC..wthell...forget it, at least something is going the right way.

I just figured it out that my CD/DVD drive of my PC is working just fine...except when installing Windows 7...wtf...that's just so weird...

I also just came back from Lowyat Plaza, sending both monitor and PC to ask for costumer services. Not much hassle I faced there, except when finding the right Viewnet shops that I supposed to go (there're Viewnet Hyperstore, Viewnet Service Center, Viewnet Computer etc etc). It took quite a while to find Viewnet service center. After they diagnosed my PC, they said there's nothing wrong with the mainboard but the processor was the one that went malfunctioned. After that, I sent my monitor to Samsung service center. What else can I say? Both Viewnet and Samsung workers were very nice and helpful. They told me that they will contact me as soon as the replacements are ready, probably three to five weeks for both the processor and monitor. Well, at least there's no shit and something is going the right way...

Thanks to these shits, I have to postpone my plan of going back to my college, which is supposed to be today.

So wtfwiththeseshits?

Enoughwiththeseshits, plz!

(I must've read Lowyat.net's Kopitiam section too much lately...)

Hate Book: Chapter 2

2009-07-03T16:30:00.020+08:00

Actually, I've wrote this before. This chapter is originally from my previous entry entitled Lu Bikin Gua Panas (in English, it's You Made Me Angry...but maybe You Pissed Me Off is a little more casual...whatever).

Chapter 2

I hate it when people don't have their cellphones with them. We are in year 2009 but imagine when people go out of their house, they have a habit of leaving their cellphones at home? Are the cellphones too heavy? Too bulky? That is bullshit. Try to imagine if an emergency were to occur, I call him for several times but he never answer. After God-knows-how-long, he texts me and gives lame excuse "I'm so sorry. I. forgot to bring my cellphone. What actually you want to talk about?" Forget it...it doesn't matter anymore. Moron.

I hate it when some idiot has a very expensive and latest model of cellphone, at least worth a thousand RM, but has little credits balance. Calling someone? Forget it. He even rarely replies my texts. I am the one who has to make calls with my cellphone worth less than RM300. What makes you so proud of using such expensive cellphones if you're so fucking stingy to reload the credits? You better use the 10-years-ago 3310 model., at least you got some spare money to reload the credits. Idiot...

I hate it when someone has more than one contact number, but rarely answers whenever I call him, even I do try all his numbers. Makes me more pissed off when I got into his voice mails services. You're saying that having many contact numbers will make you more flexible? Stupid...go to hell!

I hate it when some unethical drivers park their cars anywhere they feel like to. What's with that "As long as this space can accomodate my ride, it's fine" attitude? Seriously. It makes me sick. It's true that such place can accomodate your cars in term of time and space, but couldn't you consider the rules and technical perspective? For God's sake, please don't park at the side of narrow roads of you'll end up getting the roads jammed. But strangely, whenever somebody hits your cars, you can even debate to ask for compensation. What a moron....I feel like spitting directly at his ugly face. Idiot...

I hate it whenever I see motorcyclists riding while holding their cellphone - probably they're texting. This is a very usual phenomenon that I can see among teenagers in my hometown. Very plain stupid. I don't care if you get hit or you yourselves fell into the drain, but please don't hit other innocent villagers. They don't deserve to get hit and suffer from you extreme stupidity. Idiot...

I hate the motorcycles thieves...shit! I saved my money for the bike, and then paid the monthly payments, maintenances, but they just stole the bike like that, and it's gone. Fuck you. My RXZ that I bought with my saving was stolen last year. Dear damn thieves....may you rot in the damn HELL! I'll never forgive you God-damn thieves. Fuck you.

-End of Chapter 2-

Hate Book: Chapter 1

2009-07-01T19:44:00.017+08:00

I just remembered an interesting site that I found some time ago. Hate Book. Well some of you might just found it already. Reading the hate entries that everybody posted there is quite fun. Some entries are funny. Some are posted in such angry mode. Reading those entries taught me few important stuffs i.e how a small thing can make people feel uncomfortable with you, or even worse, they can hate you if you really do piss them off. Well I guess humans are very much complex, are we?

Chapter 1

I hate it when I realized that my newly bought keyboard has a "Fn" key left to the "Ctrl" key. It gives me much trouble playing games which utilize left "Ctrl" key i.e. Left 4 Dead and Counter Strike. I often mispressed the "Fn" key and got myself pwned. WTF....in the end I threw away the "Fn" key to God-knows-where...

I hate it whenever my youngest brother begging me to play games at my computer. Usually I just ignored him. After that he would cry and went to my father. Soon, my father ordered me to let him play...and left me no choice unless to face my father's wrath.

For God's sake, why don't he just play outside with his friends and cousins like any other countryside kids would do? Kids these days...5 years old but already want to play computer games...geez..

Kids...usually I don't understand them. Maybe that's why whenever I'm with kids, I sucks.

I hate it whenever my little brothers' friends and cousins came over to my house to play computer games with him. I left my computer just for a while but when I came back, they already occupied my seat, playing games at my computer. What the F...couldn't you at least ask for my permission first?...but I would never let them play my computer, anyway.

Kids...sometimes I don't like them.

I hate it whenever my little cousins came over to my house. They took my comics and manga from the shelves, read them, and just left them all over the places, unreturn to the book shelves. In the end, I am the one who have to put them back at the shelves before my mother gets angry.

Kids...most of the times they're annoying and really pissed me off.

I hate it whenever my father bought something for the family usage, some idiot of my family would treat it as it was his. Even worse, he scolds others because using it without his permission. What a douche...

I hate it whenever I asked my brothers to tidy up the beds, they'll start pointing at each other, saying they are not the only one who slept there and everybody slept there must be held responsible too. What the hell...

Kids...usually reasoning with them is useless, it's like reasoning with dumb rocks.

-End of Chapter 1-

Tagged v5

2009-06-29T01:07:00.032+08:00

1. What is your ambition? And you ended up with what field now?

When I was still a child, I wanted to be an engineer - because almost everyone in my neighbourhood looked up to the title "engineer" (and "doctor" too). Somehow, the phenomenon encouraged me to follow the engineer path. Well I did follow the path to be an engineer, but I just kind of went with the flow. Somehow, kind of hoping that I'll be able to control my own destiny.

Change of profession, perhaps?

2. Do you think that girls and boys can be best friends forever?

My opinion is "no". Relationships will never last. Nothing will. Everything will perish somehow. It just takes time.

3. What type of girl do you like?

I like a girl with very feminine personality, but has strong will that she is able to go through thick and thin with me - considered most girls' heart are fragile.

I hate the girl that has sudden change of heart when an anomaly occurs. I know their hearts are fragile, but couldn't they put a little more patient and faith?

4. How about physical appearance? Honestly la..

I want the kawaii (cute) looks and personalities. Surely hard to find one here, except Japan. There's a bunch I can find there.

I want she to be moe-ish, too.

Am I asking too much?

Better answer the next question...

5. Do you ever have any encounter with Police or any Authorities (guards)?

Ever since I started driving, I have lost count of policemen that I met during road blocks. They sure did set up road blocks many times in front of my college entrance.

Not to mention the security guards in blue inside my college that I meet everyday, except during semester break.

6. Do you ever 'belanja kopi'?

Not yet, but I probably would do it. When I become a salaryman, that thing would be a common thing.

7. Do you ever cheat people? Why?

Who in the world has never cheated? No one. When I cheated, I had a reasonable reasons. Cheating is not always bad.

Honesty does not always get you anywhere. Sometimes, you HAVE to cheat.

8. Name 3 persons you don't like. (not hate):

I rather change the question to "Name 3 types of persons you don't like"

First, racist bastards. Someone who has little and low sensitivity on other ethnics belief and religions has to be bashed on their dumb head so that they will learn the importance of national unity. For god's sake, we're living in a multi-ethnic country, so please be more considerate. If I ever met one or two, I rather throw these morons in a pool full of sharks so that the sharks can bite their dicks off.

Second, selfish bastards. This type of people deserve to be left alone in a tiny island at the center of Bermuda Triangle, hundred miles away from shore so that they will appreciate and learn how to live harmony with other human beings.

Third, (I can't think of any at this time...)

9. View on friendships?

Relationships will never last. So do friendships.

But I do cherish my friends, as long as they don't back stab me.

10. Believe in love?

Not much.

11. Who is your 1st love?

A girl that I would never tell you her name.

12. How do you describe yourself?

Unstable self-esteem. Not easy to forgive. Vengeful, at some time. Always faking my smile to look good in front of everyone.

13. Ever hate a person? Why?

Again. Who in the world doesn't ever hate anything/anyone? Anyone does, at least once.

When I hate a person, I had my reasons. Try to imagine someone back stabs you. Few years later, he/she acts normal as if he/she never done anything wrong. And he/she never once apologize. He/she thinks time can erase all bad memories?

Well thanks, he/she is such a fucking asshole and can have my curses of not having a happy life, not on this Earth and he/she will rot at the bottom of pit in the seventh hell for thousand years in the afterlife.

If you think I'm too vengeful, what do you think about apologies?

Can't you say a very simple sentence like "I'm very sorry"?

14. Do you do house chores at home?

Sometimes. When I feel like doing some, I do it.

15. What's your current nickname?

Faiz, Rev, Faiz Rev

16. What is your main principle in life?

Do not expect people to treat you in the same way you treat them.

People are forgetful, they will often forget that you had helped them a lot. But if you ask their help, they give many lame excuses. Well thanks, I probably can work my ass on my own. Thank you for your stupid excuses, moron.

17. What is the proudest thing that happened in your life?

Whenever somebody acknowledges me, even for a small matter.

18. What is your most satisfied achievement?

Any time I see the fruits of my own labor. Any situation, any time is fine as long the criteria are met.

19. What is the thing that you regret the most in your life?

Loving a person so much. Because I love that person like hell, my heart aches so much after breaking up that I can feel the pain until this very moment.

I learnt to never let the lust take over yourself. Even if I were in a relationship, I will never give 100% love. After all, relationships will never last.

20. Did you take any initiative to make up your regretness?

I did. Now I'm curing my heart with any possible methods and therapy.

21. What is your happiest moment in life?

I have forgotten when is such moment. My life have been pretty much dull, lately.

22. What will you do, if you are doing a thing that is not good to a person, and that person happens to find out and sort of caught you 'red-handed'?

If I had good reasons to do such things, I will just explain it. He/she might not listen, but at least I did explain. If he/she want to go hard-headed, fine, just go ahead with your dumb head.

23. The person that changed you.

That 'person'.

24. The incident that changed your life.

Too much to tell here.

25. What's your plan now?

Concentrate on finishing the degree programme. This is my last semester before graduating so I will give my best . Yosh!

10 Persons I would Like To Tag:

I will never tag anyone. Most of them will never respond to the tag, anyway. Afterall, I am not an important person in many people's heart. Kthnxbye.

The world sure has changed...

2009-06-17T22:10:00.026+08:00

My childhood is surely not the same as my brothers, especially the younger ones.

And why I said that?

Take a look at these pictures.

Those are the pictures of my youngest brother, Daniel who is still 5, but already getting used to play computer games. He's playing Left 4 Dead. And he's addicted to it.

(Sorry for you, Daniel, your face is now exposed. I could've put mosaic onto your face using Adobe Photoshop, but I'm just too lazy, LOL)

Rewinding my memories when I was still child (I'm an adult now LOL), I also played much video games, but not as early as five like my brother. I was seven when I got my own first gaming console. It was Famicom. No idea what Famicom is? Just click this damn link or see the pictures below.

Game cartridges for Famicom, expensive and bulky.

Famicom nowadays. LOL.

What games did I play with Famicom back then?

I played Super Mario Bros, Dr. Mario, Contra...I couldn't recall what else. It's been so long and I didn't remember much.

How was the graphic back then?

Well, pictures speak better than my bloody writings...

Super Mario Bros

Contra

I want to say nothing of those. Judge the quality yourselves.

So what do games nowadays look like?

Stunning graphics and effects, voices, music, beautiful cutscenes etc etc.

Example? See Left 4 Dead screenshots below.

(the game that that my brother has been playing)

and most importantly, they are cheap.

Sure the world has changed much. The web has made the world 'smaller'. The standard of living has improved etc etc.

While kids nowadays are always attached to computers, cellphones and other sophisticated electronic gadgets, I spent my childhood playing in the bushes, rivers, firecrackers, meriam buluh (bamboo canon) and fishing anywhere possible; ponds, rivers, drains etc.

Kids nowadays are just so lucky...just so lucky. Darn it.

***All pictures are courtesy of whoever they belongs to

The Crisis was just too...sad

2009-06-12T23:17:00.005+08:00

Recently I've just finished playing this game. Crisis Core: Final Fantasy VII. Took me more than bloody 40 hours to finish this game (Completed story mode and 60% of the missions).

Crisis Core: Final Fantasy VII

The game is really great...except the ending is way too...sad.

I was barely crying seeing the Zack's death scene.

Knowing that five years had passed, he even couldn't meet his lover, Aerith before his death.

Even after his death, Cloud continued to carry his will and burden.

And in Final Fantasy VII (1997, Playstation One), Aerith was killed by Sephiroth.

This is too much...I think that I couldn't take it anymore.

Don't know why, but I'm getting so emotional playing this game. Maybe this game brings back memories when I first into playing role-playing-game (RPG) and Final Fantasy VII was way too much kick in the ass (aside from FFVIII and FFX, I think).

Deep in my heart, I'm hoping that there is alternate plot that Zack and Aerith would be happily together. No death. No war. Full stop.

Zack, you're my hero!

Back at home

2009-06-09T01:57:00.002+08:00

Very tired. At last I'm back at home.

Home sweet home. Heh.

Off to Malacca...for few days

2009-06-04T12:36:00.001+08:00

I will be going to Malacca for few days, together with my colleagues, to attend our female friend's wedding.

(If I still remember, last time I went to Malacca was three years ago?)

I'll update something, if I could.

This time...double is trouble

2009-05-29T19:23:00.006+08:00

Shit.

Fuck.

Curse my college poor internet connection.]

*Curse

.................

Ok the story is like this. (I rather be brief)

I dealt with a seller at lelong to buy a Logitech gamepad that my brother requested. The price was RM99 plus shipping fee RM10. Total of RM109. Everything went fine, the seller responded quick, the item was good except one part, my internet browsing here at college.

Whenever I tried to load CIMBClicks webpage, it took barely near 5 minutes just to open the homepage. Done logging in, but then came a series of trouble. Whenever I clicked on another links, again, it took just like about five minutes to load the page.

Make the story short.

4,5 times my CIMB sessions were logged out automatically (*curse here).

And after a-I-don't-know-number-of tries, I managed to pay the money for the gamepad.

The item were shipped here in good conditions.

But just now when I logged in into CIMBClicks account, I just realized that I paid the seller twice.

What?

WTF?

No mistake.

I did pay him two times.

Two transactions of RM109 each.

Fuck.

....

So just now I just emailed the seller, asking him to return the extra money that I paid to him by mistake. Hopefully he'll entertain my request. Hey the money is rightfully mine right?

Lessons learnt: UTP internet connections are really sucks, slow, and poor that it could mess up your life or mine pretty bad. FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!

The Dark Fantasy

2009-05-25T14:16:00.004+08:00

Guess I must've like fantasy a lot. Last night I came across this movie, Coraline. Thumbnails, as usual me.

The story is quite interesting and the scenes are creative, I must say. Personally I like the main character, Coraline. Because she's cute?

Maybe.

At least I was able to release some steam of my head with this movie. Nice.

Award?

2009-05-18T03:59:00.014+08:00

I've received an award. From my housemate, Adi.

Macam ni la lebih kurang.

1. Copy badge "2008 Cute's Blogger Award" di atas untuk diletakkan di blog anda.

2. Link/ceritakan kembali siapa yang memberikan award ini kepada anda.

3. Setiap blogger mesti menyatakan 10 fakta/hobi diri sendiri sebelum memilih penerima award seterusnya (anda di-tag)

4. Anda perlu memilih 6 penerima award seterusnya dan menyatakan nama mereka di blog anda.

5. Jangan lupa untuk melawat blog mereka dan meninggalkan komen yang menyatakan "anda telah di tag - sila layari blog saye untuk mendapatkan award anda". Terima kasih!

_______________________________

1. Copy badge "2008 Cute's Blogger Award" di atas untuk diletakkan di blog anda.

Selesai.

2. Link/ceritakan kembali siapa yang memberikan award ini kepada anda.

Nama beliau Adi Asnawi bin Shapawi. Dari Sabah. Gua mengenali beliau kat UTP ni sejak 1st semester foundation year kot.

Menu mapley feveret beliau - cheese nan (roti nan keju)

Selesai.

3. Setiap blogger mesti menyatakan 10 fakta/hobi diri sendiri sebelum memilih penerima award seterusnya (anda di-tag)

1) Lelaki. 22 tahun lebih. Aquarius. Zodiac year; Rabbit.

2) Gua suka makan dan tidur.

3) Single - tapi mahu mengakhiri zaman single ini secepat mungkin.

4) Benda paling gua suka: Drive malam2 sambil hirup angin malam sambil layan lagu rock kapak.

5) Juga suka layan lagu2an dalam playlist Winamp gua.

6) Benda paling aku xsuka: No internet. Internet is a serious business, u don't know that? Geez...

7) Masa kecik, addicted kat Milo. Mesti nak minum milo. Kalau nak keluar rumah, parents gua dulu selalu prepare air milo dalam bekas tupperware ala2 termos tu in case gua merengek nak milo. Mase kecik mane tau malu sangat, selalu je bising2 kat rumah orang nak milo smpai tuan rumah terpaksa bancuhkan milo untuk gua. Masa beraya rumah orang pun gua mintak minum milo. Geez...

8) Game feveret gua; Final Fantasy series.

9) Series ferevet gua; Heroes, Supernatural & Kamen Rider series.

10) Personaliti faveret gua; Tanaka Reina (田中れいな) dari Morning Musume (モーニング娘)

Selesai.

4. Anda perlu memilih 6 penerima award seterusnya dan menyatakan nama mereka di blog anda.

1) entah
2) entah
3) entah
4) entah
5) entah
6) entah

pass

5. Jangan lupa untuk melawat blog mereka dan meninggalkan komen yang menyatakan "anda telah di tag - sila layari blog saye untuk mendapatkan award anda". Terima kasih!

Memandangkan gua pun tiada tag walau seorang pun, maka tiadalah keperluan untuk buat perkara no. 5 ini.

pass

Sekian.

レーヴ ノ 光 | Glow of Rev

Ubahlah aku...

Of Being Friend Zoned

Mesti jangan...

12 tahun sudah...

Alarm Jahanam

Cinta Si Ular Putih

Jodoh rakan sekelas

Alice Berdarah

Of Chasing After Her

Kembalinya sebagai tukang bakar

Malam yang cerah

Dua minggu sudah

Of Being More Than Just Friends

Babak Terakhir Sanjiyan Unkara

Berubah...

Boss kawen!!!

Aku yang dulu...

Qaseh Suci...

Kisah Nero dan Meevo

Ku Menunggu...

Perginya...

Hari yang......panjang

Hari yang teruk

Tinju Big Dipper

Of 2010

Kepingin...

Nak jugak...

Season Break is Over

Burok perangai

Manusia yang dibenci

Sendirian

Words of despair

Kadang-kadang...

Cuti & Bosan

OMG WTF?

Suwey?

Suwey yg (ter)amat

Graduation

It can be anyone

Exia

Exam draws near...

SI Petronas - done

Saturday's Test - Part 2

月亮 代表我的心

Saturday's Test

Day 27: I'm home

Day 24: Hope

Day 7: Part 2

Day 7

Day 1

Nanchatte Renai

Hannah vs. Miley

Hate Book: Chapter 4

of Durian journey

Ucapkanlah

I'm here

Where am I?

Hate Book: Chapter 3

wtfwiththeseshits?

Hate Book: Chapter 2

Hate Book: Chapter 1

Tagged v5

The world sure has changed...

The Crisis was just too...sad

Back at home

Off to Malacca...for few days

This time...double is trouble

The Dark Fantasy

Award?

レーヴノ光 | Glow of Rev

月亮代表我的心